Safety

I am sending you the biggest 'virtual' hug that ever existed in the world of hugs @Eden1919

Consider me a big teddy bear that you can get lost in a feel safe and cosy.

...and when you fall asleep I will wrap my big bear arms around you and keep you safe all night

@Eden1919 I am hoping that you are imagining yourself cuddled up to a big giant teddy bear hugging you right now. Just wanted to let you know when you read this that I am once again so proud of how you have reached out and got through tonight. I will check in with you again tomorrow...

sending you strength, courage and huge hugs...

Zoe

Morning @Eden1919 I noticed that you were still up in the early hours of this morning and that you were trying to stay calm. Even though you didn't feel like you were doing very well at that - I think you did better than you think. I say that because you were trying and that is positive Eden.

I will be on and off the forum today but give me a shout out if you need as I will check in every now and then to see how you are going.

I hope you find some light in your day today...

Thinking of you...

Zoe

Hi @Eden1919,

How are you today?

today is not good i had a fight with someone and now i feel really horrible and suicidal that and i think i have lost my only true dream so i am starting to wonder what is the point why should i keep fighting.... i feel totally hopeless i ate too so now i want to throw up everything is a mess i dont even know if i want to keep trying. maybe i am better off gone maybe everyone is better off if i am gone.

Hiya @Eden1919

I can see that you are doing it really tough today - I am thinking of you my buddy.

I am sorry you had a fight with someone - talk about it if you like. Maybe it is not as bad as you think and you need a little distance to process it - I may be wrong - it would not be the first time lol

I for one would not be better off without you here as I do enjoy chatting to you. Dog and Bunny would miss you also.

I know it is really hard to fight these horrible feelings but I seen you do it before and I know you can do it again. You have shown so much strength over the last few days in getting through each day - and I am still here with you - sitting with you and listening when you need.

Zoe

HI @Eden1919

Just letting you know we are sending you an email.

Just in case you don't see the email, here are some numbers for immediate support if you need it.

it was a fight with my sister i am just so sick of this all i want to scream at everyone i feel like i am about to start crying again i am just so tired and i can never have my dream and everythng is ruined i am trying to stay positive but it is not working very well i just i dont know what to do anymore i feel really lost.

Oh bugger @Eden1919 - family can be so hard to deal with. It is so much harder to walk away from family and arguments seemed to get amplified with them

If you need to cry then cry - it is a great outlet for your emotions and better than keeping it bottled up!

You have done a great job over the last few days of not drowning in all the negativity you have been feeling - I can see that from the outside even if you can't see that yourself. I know this doesn't make you feel any better but it does give me hope that you will get through this now also - you have an inner strength that, even though you may not see or feel, it is guiding you through each of these really tough days.

Describing yourself as 'feeling lost' is something I can certainly realte to. There seems to be no way forward, no hope in the moment, your feelings are heightened but at the same time you are feeling nothing, the world around you seems very distant and you cannot see how or why it will get any better. Does this resonate with you Eden?

What is your dream? Tell me a little more about this - I am intrigued!