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yes it does nothing feels real at all and i am so tired of everything. my dream was to study languages but i cant do that anymore because there is something wrong with my brain and i dont think it can be fixed why keep tryig when all you ever wanted is no longer possible

Yep it really sucks when nothing feels real around you @Eden1919 What is real in this moment however is that once again you have reached out and asked for support - that is not only real but very couragous Eden

Wow - languages - any that you specifically want to learn more than others? I know a little Italian and French (and a fair bit of Australian slang lol). I found learning another language extremely difficult when I was older but worth the effort.

What do you feel is 'wrong' with your brain that this dream does not seem possible?

i liked korean japanese and chinese and i used to be good at them but now i cant process information the way i used to and it makes it impossble to learn them i just want to cry but i cant seem too everything is a mess i have ruined everything

Oh I get it @Eden1919 - those are really tough languages to learn in any circumstance - wow - impressive that you even started one, let alone all three

Why do you think you have ruined everything? What has happened to make you think this?

i just have i cant do anything and it is hard to explain i do not feel good at all and now i am really scared and i dont know what to do there is soooooo much in my head it feels like it is going to explode and i am shaking and i want to hurt myself a lot and i dont feel right

@Eden1919 Our first step here then is to try and focus on just one or two things that are in your head. It doesn't matter what you choose to focus on - it is about trying to stop the turmoil and confusion going on in your mind. If you don't think you can choose one thing yourself then tell me about when, how and why you got Dog - I love animal stories, and especially how people came across their pets!

my being scared and the eating stuff

okey dokey @Eden1919 Let's start with you being scared. What are you scared of? Don't worry about trying to work out a response that makes sense - just type whatever comes out

well i am still really paranoid and my OCD is just all over the place also i keep having panic attacks and it just makes me feel really bad. i cant say what i am scared of it is too scary which is weird i know