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Well if you weren't breathing @Eden1919 you also wouldn't be typing - just saying!!!!! lol

Maybe we need some distractions atm - journalling is not likely to work when you have so much going on at once - have you fed Dog and Bunny yet?

@Zoe7 dog and bunny dont get fed till later i am trying to distract myself but i am having little success i cant even explain it properly like i cant stop fidgeting and i keep scratching at myself and shaking and everything is a mess.

oh bugger @Eden1919 - well we'll have to come up with something else then - can you channel some of that energy into drawing - it doesn't have to be anything planned - just start with random lines or shapes and see what you can 'see' in what you have produced to turn into something else - a bit like Mr. Squiggle (I so hope you know who Mr.Squiggle is.....)

@Zoe7 I tried drawing before but i couldnt do it and yes i know mr squiggle lol i really feel weird and i get the feeling i am not going to sleep either tonight but i need to get up early looks like it could even be an all nighter and ugh this is annoying i just want to scream at everyone (not on here) but i cant because i promised i would keep it a secret but something inside wants to get out of me and it wants out now but i cant let it out because it is complicated and i just ugh my head wont stop i cant even describe it like it just wont stop.

ok @Eden1919 this may sound like a strange suggestion but can you type it all out but not post - may help you to let some of that pressure that has built up inside you be released a little. then keep talking here - the more you talk the more 'relaxed' you usually become. It may be an all nighter but lets try and make it as easy as we possibly can.

@Zoe7 ok typing it took like a half hour then i started pacing for a while and now i dont know what to do i am going to try and make something to eat i still dont feel good.

Hi @Eden1919 Hope you are doing ok. Sorry I fell asleep after taking meds.

@Zoe7 Um Yay you fell asleep..... meaning you slept i think that is a great start at least.

I am not doing very well but trying to stay calm-ish i think i am getting more nervous as tomorrow gets closer which is no good i have 2 appointments tomorrow so it will be a big long day. i am just hoping i make it through tomorrow.

Yes I did @Eden1919 but now I am awake at the worst part of the night and scared to take my night meds so late because I am already feeling on edge.

You are sounding much better tonight than you were this afternoon - so just work on getting through the night (me too) and worry about tomorrow's appointments when they come. My appointment isn't until 4.30 so I should be around during the day for you. What times are you appointments?

i have one at 10am and one at 2pm.