Safety

I do not feel good oh whats the point anymore i am doomed

@Eden1919@Zoe7I just wanted to let you know I have been here watching over you both from the sidelines. I don't expect any response to this post but know I am here, caring and concerned but hopeful that things will go right for you both really soon. xx

thanks @Sans911 for caring.

well i am a bit worried about a few things namely i have to keep a huge secret from people i dont normally keep secrets from but i understand this is a test and i must pass it is just really hard. especially when they ask questions. i dont like to lie so if they ask direct questions then i guess i just have to say i cant tell them. ugh this is so frustrating but it is super important that i dont mess up like i did last time this is a big job and i have to do it right or else. i just it was all my fault and i am glad i am getting a second chance but i was nearly fooled by them and i have to be so much more careful this time oh my more tricks sorry for the detour it is complicated what should i do and what if my caseworker has already told the doctors about the demons then they will have a lot of questions that i am not allowed to answer i even must be more careful on here. he lurks everywhere and is hard to spot. i feel very weird good and bad at the same time ugh i cant say much more but i have to get back to work or i will not have it completed in time. i am really agitated and i cant settle this is frustrating and it is all making my head spin not to mention i still cant sleep the next few days are going to be very long or perhaps not maye i can never mind that is also private. still there is ony one way out of this mess and i have to make sure this time it works.

Hello @Eden1919

You seem to mentioning some concerning things in your last post which are quite vague and I am not quite sure what you are referring to but it sound like thoughts of suicide to me. You have shown a lot of strength in coming to the forums and seeking help. It’s really important that you speak to someone about how you feeling.

Do you have someone you can speak to right now?
Unfortunately we are not a crisis service, but some places you can call now for support are;

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat
Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

If you are feeling suicidal, it’s really important to call one of the numbers above. You don’t deserve to go through this alone.

Lunar

@Former-Member I am ok today it is not specifically about that i just cant say what is it about but i am ok

@Zoe7 well there is that but also something new has happened only i am literally not allowed to explain it or i will ruin everything and i cant risk that i really cant all i can say is it is a project i am working on that is very important i know i am not sleeping much but i am not that tired and i am not sleeping throught the day either my head feels kind of busy actually but idk i am in a weird mood i am just worried because the demons are realted to all of this but i really shouldnt have told my caseworker about them because now i am going to be in trouble and with who i cant say but it was all my fault i should have fixed things the first time like they asked i tried but i was stupid and didnt listen properly and now i am in an even bigger mess.

i am really stressed i dont know what to do is anyone around to chat?

I guess that is a no then....