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sending you hugs @Sans911, @Eden1919

@Sans911 hey i went for a walk which didnt really help. anyway i can relate to putting a happy mask on around family i do that all the time it is just easier than telling them everything especially when you dont feel like they would understand anyway. i hope your mother coming home isnt too much for you.

I am feeling even weirder than before if that is even possible i just am not sure what to do or how to explain it this is frustrating for me.

@Eden1919thanks for your message. I only have to have my mother with me one night, as I already told her she can have my car to visit her sisters on Tuesday. She will then stay overnight on Tuesday with her sister before I drive her to SW WA for her pre operation appointment on Wednesday. Then I will hand her over to another one of her sisters to take her home Wednesday afternoon (yes, not sure how good your maths is, but she has 3 sisters and 4 brothers!!). That means I can come home Wednesday night. She lives about 4 hours away from me in a country town, so I don't get to see her that often.

I am sorry you are still feeling strange. Have you started any new meds recently? Have you ever felt this way before? Or do you have any PRN mediation you can take? I am actually a health professional, so although I can't say actually what's wrong with you in this context, I might be able to help a little if you can describe what is going on? Have you eaten or taken fluids today?

@Sans911 ahh ok well it is good you will get to see your mother then. I have had food and things to drink today I just feel very on edge i have recently stopped 2 meds and i have no prn to take it is complicated i just feel like good and bad at the same time.

@Eden1919Quite possibly it could be your meds that you have recently stopped. Sometimes they can give you what is called brain zaps, like little electrical shocks. When I have stopped meds before, I have felt very odd coming off them. Did your dr or whoever stopped your meds give you any indication of what to expect?

I am not on any medication right now except melatonin to help me sleep. I have been on several anti-depressants over the last 18 months, and for me, they only work for a few months before they don't work anymore. But now, I think maybe I should, because I'm so deep in this depression and I am struggling to come back up.

Just take care tonight, as I am sure you are doing. Get plenty of sleep if you can, and hopefully tommorow you might feel a little better.

@Sans911 I kind of stopped my meds myself well it is a long story I have OCD as well and it kind of got in the way but anyway i guess it could be the meds issue i mean the meds wernt working anyway but still like i feel good but i am not sure maybe i am just not used to it. i will see how i go the next few days. I am sorry you are feeling bad maybe meds could help you even if just for a little while but that is up to you. i am going to try and sleep more but i think i have ruined my sleeping pattern anyway i am just trying to see how i go for now.

I do not feel good at all I am getting really frustrated with this but i cant make it stop. I want to cry and i was fine ths morning but now i just feel really really low and I am having some really bad thoughts about ending it all i am trying not to but ugh this is just really annyoing I am also having trouble with food again and i dont know what to do anymore.

hello @Eden1919 , i love your profile picture

and @Former-Member is here until 8pm and we are here for you too

@Shaz51 thanks

I am just feeling really really bad and i dont know what to do.