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@Zoe7

@Zoe7 I can understand where you are coming from the numbness and lack of energy i have felt many times and it is horrible but you should not feel like a burden. it is hard feeling that way all the time i am glad you try to find hope though that is a good thing.

i dont know how i feel right now i am trying my best but i feel like i am letting everyone down. i dont even know what to say anymore i just feel terrible.

@Eden1919 hope you are doing ok today and staying strong buddy - I am thinking of you!

I'm still not doing well so I probably won't be around much but I will try to check in with you throughout the day

@Kurra Thanks I will look into that.

@Zoe7 It sucks you are still feeling really bad it must be really hard for you at the moment. I am thinking of you too.

I feel weird atm like everything is spinning and really all over the place and I want to scream all thetime and I just idk it feels so weird I cant even explain it properly I think I need to get away but from what I dont know. I have so much to do and I still feel really bad but at the same time a weird kind of good like I can do anything but not like ugh I cant explain it I just feel busy and jittery or maybe idk it is weird.

I dont feel good I have even done some SH today. I want to scream I dont even know what to say anymore I just dont know how much longer I can do this SH is the only thing keeping me going atm without it I am nothing.

I feel terrible today I am so so so scared and I didnt sleep well at all and there is too much noise and my head wont stop and I dont know what to do anymore. the only thing I can think about right now is ending it all I am trying not to but I feel like i am falling with nothing to hold onto. I dont feel good.

I am so sorry to hear you are feeling like you are free falling into the pit. It is a terrible place to be. Can I ask what you have done in the past that has worked? You have reached out to talk, which is really good, what distractions can you use? Let me think. I write sometimes because it helps me get the anger out in a controlled way and lets all the voices in my head have their say. It helps work out the trigger. What about walking. Kick the ground, take it out on the grass, run it out of your system. Do you have someone you can call? Do you have a pet? Can you read other peoples posts and write...

There are times where it feels like nothing will work and we are stuck. Decide whether you are safe. If you are not, then you know what to do, ER. If you think you can, then either some of the above activities or even better - sleep it out. That can be hard if you are angry and your mind doesn't shut up. Do you have some music you can listen to or a movie you like can watch and try to fall asleep to.

I wish I could offer you more suggestions, but what I can say is that thus far your success rate for getting past these feelings has been 100% successful. Keep Swimming as Dory would say..

I have been trying every distraction I can think of but sadly they dont seem to be helping. I am trying to swim but i feel like i am drowning instead. I want to cry but i cant.

Distraction is not working, and crying is not working. I hate it when I cannot cry - you can feel all these emotions inside of you and just wishing you could get rid of them. Is there a chance then of getting to sleep? What about some online games,

Speaking from experience, you are right, there are times where nothing that seems to work. Riding it out and knowing that the sun will go down, you will sleep and the sun will rise and you will start another day is someting to hold onto. Why? Because you have had your good days, your great days, days you wished would never end. In the meantime, continue talking on here, I'm here...we can talk.