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Hi @Eden1919,

That sucks big time. At least you now know what to look out for. It might be worthwhile taking some information/evidence to your psych about effective non-medicine treatments (eg psychosocial) which are beneficial for your 'diagnosis'. This could show them that you are serious about other options, but at the same time are also serious about continuing some form of treatment.

It can be hard to find psychs sometimes, there is a shortage in Australia at the moment. I hope you can find one you like. The Australian Psychological Society has a web page where you can search for a psych, its pretty good. Heres the link (opens in new page) http://www.psychology.org.au/FindaPsychologist/

@Zoe7 I am not sure what you wrote as it didnt show up 😕

I saw my psychiatrist they were unhappy about me not taking my meds and a few other things but i also met my new caseworker who seems nice so that part was good. I am not sure what to do though i am feeling really weird and agitated and I want to scream at everybody. I dont mean to be like this I just am and I just ugh I feel really weird. and not a good weird I dont know but the thoughts are REALLY bad tonight.

Today is weird I dont feel right it is hard to explain I am trying to keep doing distractions but they arent working very well. I am still really agitated and the thoughts are really bad still like I am thinking about it 24/7 which is frustrating I am also in a weird mood or maybe this is normal and I am just not used to it I dont know. I want to feel things again but I cant for some reason I want to paint too but i need more things I feel very uncomfortable and i am annoyed about how the doctors went yesterday all they wanted to talk about was the meds that was it I should never have told them but ugh everything is a mess and i dont know what to do anymore.

@Zoe7 Thanks I hope your trip is going well.

@NikNik Yes I need to buy another canvas and some more paint. I am getting really paranoid again tonight and I dont know how much longer I can take this I am so exhausted and I want to scream and there is too much in my head and I really dont feel good. I can't stop thinking about things too I am trying not to but I cant help it like I am thinking about 'it' constantly. I dont feel right.

Hi @Eden1919

That sounds really overwhelming. You have done an amazing job at getting through day after day. What are you finding helpful at the moment?

Nik

@NikNik I don't even know how I am getting through I think more than anything I just dont have a good enough plan. 😞 ugh I dont know what to do.