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@Zoe7 haha that did make me laugh a little.

i just hate that everything is a total mess right now it is really frustrating.

We really need to put frustrating on our list of swear words @Eden1919 hahaha

How is the med swallowing going (because it has come to my attention that I am completely usefless in offering any form of advice in this area tonight lol)

not good tonight i will try again later but i couldnt even put it into my mouth. this all feels hopeless and my doctor will be mad when they find out too i really dont know what to do.

med swallowing with honey @Eden1919, have you tried that

Don't worry about your doctor - if they get mad then that is their problem not yours - you can only do what you can do and sometimes our fears are far more powerful than our actions. Forget about the meds for now (I'm sure I'll remind you again later anyway lol) and try and do something nice for yourself - put on some of your favourite music - than usually helps a little @Eden1919

i will try not to worry about it but not worrying is not my strong point lol. i just made dinner so now that distraction is gone.

"Not worrying is not my strong point" - no sh*t Sherlock! @Eden1919 I do believe that comment just moved me from the couch to the floor with laughter!!!!!

How about 'hiding' your meds in your dinner - like we do with little kids and animals.... LOL

too late i already ate it but i am going to try again later i just dont know how but i will try and figure something out. ugh i want to scream i just honestly dont think i can take them like actually all jokes aside i am seriously not sure i can do this.

No jokes this time @Eden1919 I hear how scared you are. Do not put any extra pressure on yourself right now buddy - forget the meds for the time being - otherwise you will add to your fear