Safety

Right. And why are you worried about their visit?

@Former-Member because i am scared i am going to end up in hospital

Hi @Eden1919 you don't know me but I've followed your thread for a couple of days. I feel for you and see your struggle. I have felt the fear you are feeling now the first time I went to hospital for mental health problems but when I look back on it I know now that it was needed at the time. It could really help to change what is happening for you like it did for me. The CATT team has helped me a lot since then. I am glad to see the moderators @Former-Member and @Former-Member have been supporting you. If you want to talk to me you can. I care. And I'm not sleeping so I'm here for you if you want.

@eth i just i cant go to hospital or they will hurt me there and the other beings will get mad at me and it is not safe there.

Thank you @eth for your kind hearted reply. I'm sure @Eden1919will appreciate that.

Eden, I know you have been feeling distressed and unwell for some time. It's important that you are correctly assessed and a good treatment plan worked out for you. My clients have mainly had positive experiences of the CATT, and if you end up in hospital, it's usually a short stay and not so bad.

Do you live alone?

I hear you @Eden1919. They will try to help you.

@Eden1919 all I can suggest is that you focus on getting through the time as peacefully as you can, even if it's a few minutes at a time. Is there anything you like doing?

@Former-Member I have been to hospital before and i have seen CATT before in fact the last time i saw CATT they took me to hospital and my stays are not normally short ones i had one stay that was nearly 2 months and they have all been bad experiences. I do not live alone but i am alone most of the time. i just i really cant go there but i dont really feel very incontrol of myself and if they find that out plus all the other stuff i am scared they will take me back there and G doesnt like the hospital either and S is always trying to get me in trouble and i am really scared cause everything will be ruined and it will be all my fault again and i cant have that or G and S will hurt me and this is a huge mess.

@eth i cant find anything that is distracting me enough i have been trying everything i have access to but nothing is working plus G and S wont leave me alone.

@Eden1919 One time when I was feeling like you seem to be I discovered 'zentangles' - you can google them if you want to. You can download templates for free or make your own easily. All you need is a pen or pencil and a piece of paper. Just a suggestion to pass the time. Remember one minute at a time. And deep slow breathing is really good to help you calm down to. When I do it I count my breath in-2-3-4 out-2-3-4. Hope these ideas might help you for a bit. What time are the CATT people coming?

@eth they are coming after lunch sometime but i dont know when exactly ugh i want to scream and i havent slept in over a month but i am still not tired i cant even explain it i cant do this i am so i just ugh i cant