The array of problems

Well you've done well for yourself there. Dodged a bullet basically...

Maybe your not that bad after all... or maybe this sane thing is based around connecting people with diagnosis and who take medication with volunteers or mh professionals just on a different format that is easy to keep a record of. Or you're just someone who connects with others who have mental health issues because of your own experiences with mental health problems ???

Yeah @Former-Member sounds like a terrible battle you've been through. And what you've mentioned must be a very complicated situation to deal with. -awaiting sleep and sleeping is the very best feeling I get out of each day. Not sure what that means. But the rest of the day is not that great. It's tough.

Are you high functioning @Former-Member?

I might have to sleep on it before I reply in full. But that's a very Interesting piece of writing which covers quite a bit if ground. (There's a lot I can relate to in there) -I have a diagnosis of schizophrenia. But when you're dealing with mental health problems. There's w broad variety if symptoms happening at any one time. -symptoms which conquer with many names of different conditions. -but yea now u reflect back on my life. I can see there was big problems developing from young childhood.

Yeah I have family and a few supportive people. And I've found its more a case of knowing people who you have things in common with then any thing else. Sort of blending with the crowd and so on. -now you take into account that I'm on a specific type of medication that not the average person takes. And it defines my social group... so the medication on its own alienates me. And makes me different. And then gives me side effects which isolate and seclude me from the general population.

I have family. But it's not what it seems. It's always me making the effort to catch up with them. And I am lucky to get one percent of the effort in return. But probably more judgment in return. And I can't really do any thing about it.

The essence of my mental health problems have always involved others. (Even if it's just in my mind and perceived and derived from real life. (And there's an element of small town syndrome as well)

Same stuff different day says a lot for my situation. -it's basically like the mhs has tried to recruit me and initiate me. And turn me into the message they are putting out there. And it just hasn't worked for me...

Does that put some things into prospective?

I got dreams, ambitions and goals. (Some of which may be unrealistic) and it's all revolved around eliminating suffering, making my life comfortable and getting what I want out of life. And it's all rather ironic when I think about it.

My belief on medication. Is that once you've been on a type of medication for so long. It will make you a certain way which is seen as acceptable. And approved of bye the mhs and is called well managed. But it turns out to be not much better then the mental health problems themselves. And is basically a form of condemnation.