Hello

Ps @Dimity not loving how it chooses the paragraphs rather annoying 🙃

Sorry I don't know what an rc program is @Chasingsunsets .

MH team? These days I see a psychologist as well as a psychiatrist... and am looking for social support groups. I'm thinking about the possibility of an occasional support worker for help with some stuff including transport.

Do you have a good team?

It's good to have a good vet too. Tiger had regular arthritis shots, they helped a lot.

I see @Dimity, a support worker sounds good, I had been meaning to ask how you were going with groceries and stuff too.

oh that’s okay I was talking about the recovery club here. I tend to shorten everything eventually lol. Nah I don’t have a team. Doctor is super junior and not sure I’m keen see infrequently, same with psychiatrist infrequently, psychologist well that’s a long story. However I still see the physio didn’t go to last session but she’s growing on me 🤣.

yes Indi is nearly at the stage of needing injections. I’m off to bed now, nice to chat probably the longest Ive been up since Monday.

I forgot to mention I do think the spangled drongo is migratory ☺️. What on for your week?

I said "team" but they don't communicate @Chasingsunsets .

I'm fine, I can walk to a supermarket.

Sounds like there's a story about your psychologist. Maybe fill me in sometime.

Lovely chatting. Take care, hope tomorrow's a better day. No plans yet. Good night.

Ah yes sounds similar @Dimity, I have my suspicions every noun again re psychiatrist and there enquiries. 🤷‍♀️ but who knows and nothing they are going to find out they don’t know so not a problem for me.

i forgot to tell you the other week i emailed the council, was getting annoyed of tripping up the same bit of pavement from a tree root so we will see, made me think of you as I know you reported something similar at some stage 😊 . Sometimes I wonder about the rc for myself but not since I have seen how changes are dealt with around here, makes me very untrusting. Not with any of the workers here of course but ^above^ them. It’s a complete shame though trust is hard to earn and very hard to get back when it’s gone. Unsure how you have felt with all this but often wonder how all the reg long standing members see this change, if it’s different operation to how things are normally done and your opinion of the change, but it’s difficult to chat about for a couple of reasons and if you don’t want to talk about it that’s so fine😊. Ahh Psych well I think she just cared too much, red flag for me. Which has left things unfinished and not processed but what do you do. Just got to move on I guess left me will little hope and very clear visions of my trajectory. The trajectory won’t change with therapy though I know this. Anyway that’s okay enough about me I want to hear what’s happening for you. 🫶🌻

I hope you get get some good rest tonight dimity night night 💫

It's sad when caring too much is troubling but there has to be trust... as well as respect both ways @Chasingsunsets .

The changes here in forumsland have been profound, coming in waves probably linked to funding cycles. I can't say much, but I've been very upset by some decisions and interactions. I don't have the IT for recovery club, which seems the focus now.

How are you and Indi today? I feel like a bit like a hibernating hedgehog, hunkered down and spiky, and half asleep.

Morning @Dimity, you had me thinking of hedgehog slice! Lol (hopefully you see the fun in that 😊) I truely haven’t had that in forever!

A hibernating hedgehog is intriguing 🦔, I don’t know much about them, what makes you feel this way? How’s your morning going today? I haven’t slept yet but need to go to sleep shortly. Think my magnesium is low I am getting cramps and from all my sleeping I think I am dehydrated, always some hurdle but you know what we always seem to get over them right. Look how many we have all gone over. I really admire everyone here for there stories. Whenever the time is right I am here to listen to bits of your story if you want to share. Don’t want to bore you with too much of mine 🤣🙊

Without a doubt we are on the same page about the changes here. The forum as it stands speaks volumes, I feel partly responsible for a lot of it too, I saw it coming, most of this. Just watched it happen didn’t say anything always hoping for the best. No best here by a long run. Been a very very interesting observation period. I experienced such good things in 2025, honestly I cannot be more thankful, this year full of disappointment? I just want everyone to experience what I felt in 2025- everyone deserves that and new members are not getting that experience. We all know this. They are getting a superficial modified version and it’s not really real. I am sad for them and I am sad for us. We deserve better we all know it and the admin and who make the funding rules know this too. Triggers me to no end 2026, as well as being an amazing place to land in 2025, it’s really so interesting to delve into but super hard to process. Learn it to be a safe place 2025 here then also trigger deep DV childhood memories in 2026 and this place pretty much hurting me, what confusion. You know why because this is how you pretend, everything looks great on the surface for who don’t know, just like it did for me years back I know this game. I played it, no one knew, no one could help, nothing was spoken about, there was no transparency or visibility- it was hidden- just like this story. The forum is speaking volumes and honestly I don’t know what it will take for sane admin to step up and turn this around (PSWs/mods all absolutely fantastic, aiming at higher above- admin), our resources were taken away, we were left to drown, expanded the forum packed it with more grief (who very much need supporting, like us grieving for a forum what was), lost long standing members gone which speak volumes. I feel like I am letting everyone down, sane admin exhaust me by playing a game and I know it. Exhust me more the problem still doesn’t go away. What will it take for this to be a positive place it once was. We know what is valued here in PSWs on the forum just like 2025. What a mind ****. It’s just one card after another. I see resistance in changing back to positive change only deflection and resistance. We know what works here, we have experienced it, they value lived experience, yet do they?

sorry for that rant. But it’s okay dimity, we got this I’d love to work together with sane admin but they have put a line in the sand. No idea why it was deserved on our end but comes back to funding and not seeing the worth I guess. I respectfully won’t take deflection or excuses that I have seen and read from sane. We certainly know what is valued here and nothing I have seen yet has been of substance of demonstrating they value the forum like we do, show us by bringing back psws and more resources to the forum like it was in 2025. The restructure failed we all know it, so let’s improve it 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️, in ways we know what works sane 🤩, psws, undeniable. Community building 101. Plus plenty more reasons that this text box won’t hold because I’ll loose the reply button 😉🤭🫶

🐶 is ok, ear seems better which is interesting and eye still putting meds in it.

Hows the weather your way today? Thought to end I’d share two pics the first is how I feel all fluffed up 🤣 (fig bird style) lol. Then the last pic of the male singing his heart out. They really make my day when I see them 🙏 (pics attached)

I can see why you're fond of figbirds @Chasingsunsets - they're gorgeous and also photogenic.

Glad Indi is improving.

I agree with your comments. I've been distressed by the changes, particularly the loss of connectivity when the new platform crashed. But I've been repeatedly cautioned and disciplined so will leave it at that.

Dehydration is a worry. Are you still sleeping a lot? I tend to wake to go to the loo and get some water then go back to sleep. I've felt nqr for a couple of weeks.

It's quite warm this weekend. I was in short sleeves today, first time since autumn. I guess it's warm for you too.

Good luck with getting the pavement fixed. Council have attended to the next two streets but not ours yet. But there's painted yellow arrows marking bits to be replaced.

I'm tired... mentally and physically. Skipped my exercises again. But looking for glimmers. I'll try to show you what next door's nectarine tree looked like a couple of days ago.

Oh hey there @Dimity how are you lovely? I was actually just thinking of you recently. Wasn’t sure you were able to see my post actually, confused the text you can see as 😷 but all good. I hear you re cautions think I just got technically my first one ah well not here to start fires just hopefully to improve things is my main aim. Probably had less of a filter this am whoops. Think we can talk about things loosely just seems context matters.

Nah I went the other way just on 36 hours awake. I am hoping to sleep tonight. I’ll take this over the last week 😜. Since I started taking meds regularly I have a bottle of water by my bed now- it’s revolutionary 🤣. Never did that before and would have to wake up and go to the kitchen if thirsty lol.

re dehydration- think as I just slept all day and night I didn’t have much at all. Only now do I realise this 🤷‍♀️ after the fact. Yeah warm here too wish it was cooler in the day time actually!

I am really hoping they fix it, it’s like a good 5/6cm off the ground lol 🤣 better not be paint only 🤣

maybe it’s the season I’m exhausted too. Also have not done my exercises which reminds me I have to cancel my next appt for physio. Oh keen on the nectarine tree! Have you posted a pic or not yet 😊. How was your day

Yes just waiting for my pic to be approved @Chasingsunsets .

I think we all mean well, and want the best for the forums and forumites.

I'm grateful I'm allowed to up my med a little if I'm not sleeping and starting to spin out.

I once found I'd probably been sharing my bedside glass of water with the cat, I caught them at it.

Fingers crossed you sleep well tonight and feel more like yourself tomorrow. It sounds like a rough week.