Social anxiety and panic attacks

@AlwaysMyself Yes it has been a real break down and rebuild bottom up in both of our lives. However what is good always comes back and we had a lot of good life together nothing lost there but what was not good.

@Intrinsic @Mustang67 @Rosepetal96 @MissGremlin

Fear Sowing Confusion

Fear holds us fast in scorching steel,
While vicious thoughts breed black confusion;
It sows among us dread and dread,
And reaps our hearts in bruised delusion.

Our doubts arise like flooding seas,
Our hopes go crackling in the fire;
Each daily strength falls down in ash,
And shelters fail beneath its ire.

A loveless force drives hard and cold,
While cruel foes make spoil of living;
They trample through our broken gates,
And leave our safest places burning.

We are a ruin in our house,
A hunted people wrapped in shadow;
Terrors cast their monstrous shapes,
While shame lays bare the wounds below.

Mad voices loot what good remains,
Their flaming lies consume the light;
They roast our peace and feed on panic,
And feast upon our lives by night.

Sister fears brother, friend fears friend,
The dark resounds with inward war;
We are become a fractured household,
A city split by flames at war.

My friends, how deep this thirst runs now,
For fear has drained what once could steady;
We bowed beneath false lashes long,
And called our wounds the truth already.

Dear sufferers, how far we’ve fallen,
For we forsook what once we knew;
Believing lies that tore us open—
Will we yet learn to see fear through?

Great work @DownMoreThanUp You really make the readers feel what you have been through.

@Mustang67 @Intrinsic @Rosepetal96 @MissGremlin

Hi friends how has life been treating you?

Searching To Find?

Love must be free to wonder,
Not stand still praising light,
While our own lamp lies under,
But walk within its shining,
Hunting our fleeing night,
True Love our lives defining.

Hi @DownMoreThanUp ,

Things have been heading on the upwards incline... touch wood 🪵 🧿🧿

Today I tried breathwork for the first time, and I feel like something shifted...

How have you been?

@Rosepetal96 That is wonderful to hear. It is so very promising when we've been prisoners of our situation for so long and then are given tools that bring us some control. Even 1-2 percent shift is remarkable and satisfying then.👍

i’m learning not to force myself through fear the old hard way, but to grow steadier ways of coping whatever mood I’m in. Anxiety has less hold now as I learn to respect myself when afraid, and discover that strength can grow gently inside weakness. Self love has so much more compassion when i fail myself than my self hating dislike does. 😍

i did joined Recovery and made an appointment to talk to someone today but the appointment did not show up, but i could not make another one, and now i cannot remember what time it was. Have to look into that in a minute.

i hope you have a wonderful day.

@DownMoreThanUp I'm glad to hear you are beginning to find strength in sitting through the uncertainty and giving yourself the compassion to feel the emotions of when faced with challenges rather than looking at yourself negatively for it. This is also something I am working on improving with myself as well. Naming the emotion, recognising the why, and accepting it rather than pushing it away has been an invaluable tool to utilise.

That's a great step to take in signing up for recovery and I am sorry to hear that the appointment was a no show. I hope that you can follow that up and ensure that you are still able to access that support ✨️

Thank you for sharing the quotes I feel that they are all very resonating, but specifically the social anxiety one, with challenging avoidance behaviours. I am slowly ticking this off every day..

I hope you have a lovely day 🌻

@Rosepetal96 So good to hear about your efforts at recovery. Indeed reversing past behaviours that spring loaded us evermore hurt and anxiety is very important. Good to hear you are taking your self care also very serious.🤗

@Intrinsic @Mustang67 @AlwaysMyself @MissGremlin

i know that identity of the person who is going to be in contact today but i have no idea what time this might be. So i walk around with my phone in my pocket so i wont miss it. i assume no more chance after 3pm W.A seeing it be 2 hours later over East.

They Feasted On My Good Life

They fed upon the good in me,
while I forgot my name.
But light returned and broke the night;
I rose through living flame.

They knotted me from what was real,
and dragged me far below.
Through dungeons built of fear and pain,
where lost souls come and go.

I fought to clear their choking webs,
but every turn was blind.
The more I strained to free myself,
the more they ruled my mind.

They lived upon what should have grown,
and drained my rightful days.
They turned my strength against itself,
through hidden twisting ways.

But light returned and broke the night,
I saw beyond their game.
The traps they sprung to finish me
became their own false shame.

My wounds cried out, the battle rose,
they thought I would be slain.
Yet fierce love stirred and stood within,
and walked me through the flame.

It broke the tyrants great and small,
and loosed their iron claim.
It gave me back my stolen life,
and called me by my name.

Now I feast upon the good once lost,
and bless the growing day.
For truth returned to dwell in me,
and drove their night away.

@Rosepetal96 Thanks!

@Intrinsic @Mustang67 @AlwaysMyself @MissGremlin

Greetings to all fellow battlers.

@DownMoreThanUp did you get a contact?

🌻

@Rosepetal96 No i was going to be contacted at 2pm but obvious some crossed wires no one called.☹️

i have asked why but have not recieced an answers yet.