My silent battles

@AlwaysMyself

Here for you. @Flutterbug9

Please let us know what you need tonight. 💛

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@Flutterbug9 wrote:

I don’t have anyone in my life who is there as support for me @Jynx Think that’s why I feel so lost and lonely plus struggle against thoughts of not wanting to be on the planet anymore. I’m safe

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I feel the same way as you do @Flutterbug9

I'm always here for you just sitting with you through these feelings and thoughts 💗

I know how hard it is to feel so lost and that nothing gets better, especially within this effed up world that we live in. 🌸

You and I are both safe.

@AuntGlow @Blackcloud

Almost constant pain in both shoulders. Nightmares. Tears everyday. quite possibly having to have shoulder surgery on both shoulders. People I’ve spoke to only telling me the negatives of the surgery and recovery. Recovery that will not allow me to have my cats, the only things in my life who honestly love me, with me for up to 2mths each surgery.

Im scared. So, so scared. On 25th this month Im due to go into hospital for a week to receive medication via infusion which works as pain reliever for chronic joint and bone pain, is through local pain management group. I’m looking forward it plus having nice chat with my pain management Dr. can’t get GP appointment before going into hospital

due to having lots of relatives not far from where I live and knowing none of them will help….. it hurts. Last mth was 6yr anni of my husbands passing, missing him so much atm.

@Chasingsunsets @AlwaysMyself @MissGremlin

@Flutterbug9 I'm sorry that you are having to deal with so much without having someone there to turn to for comfort and support. It really does make even the smallest of struggles that much harder to deal with, and your struggles sound anything but small.

I'm glad to see you continuing to reach out and connect with the amazing people here on the forums. Even though it's just words on a screen, each post comes from the heart of a real human being, and in my experience the care and empathy expressed here is pretty much always very genuine. We're here to walk beside you 💜

Hiya @Flutterbug9 I have been going through my emails and realised I missed this one. Big apologies!

How are you going?

oh dear re your B12 debacle I am sure many people do that if they aren’t told lol. I do t think that one is on you 😊

How’s the infusion stuff progressing? Maybe nearly time for your infusion?

Take care! ☀️

Due to nurse at my GP given all injections and marking her own appointments, things on that line should run smoother from now @Chasingsunsets

Mon 25 I’ve due to be in hospital for first day of next infusion. I’m looking forward to this infusion due to very recently starting to deal with constant shoulder pain (I’ve tagged you into post about my fears etc).

im also looking forward to talking to my pain management Dr about impact of last infusion, my fears etc

first week of June is next B12 shot plus gp appointment to talk about referral to specialist for my shoulders

@AlwaysMyself

@MissGremlin

Ive added tag for you onto post of mine from yesterday, give some insight into why the daily inspirations are being helpful. I’m physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted. Feeling very alone, scared and lonely. Sore sinuses and headache today due to lots of tears last few days.

one possible bit of light I found today. I’m hoping to be able to get referral to see same specialist who treated my frozen shoulder years ago.

@Flutterbug9 oh my sweet, there's so much going on and all at once for you. I can hear how much of an impact it would be having on you at the moment especially the fear around it all.

I'm hoping all goes ok with the hospital stay coming up and that you'll get relief from the constant pain. Know that you're not alone sweetheart, we're here for you. Sending so much love and hugs ❤️.

Hi @Flutterbug9, how’s your day going?

I am glad that now the nurse books in her own appts and things should run smoother 😊

I am glad the 25th isn’t far away, so hopefully your pain can subside. How are you sitting with the appt? Chatting to the pain doctor sounds like it will be helpful for you 🫶
How are your two gorgeous fluffs 🐈

I hear you have been having a rough time over there, what has helped you get through?

I hope the B12 injections are helping but might be a bit of time before you feel the improvements?