BowSenior Contributor
When the outside doesn’t match the inside
Not sure if many others can relate, but I nearly always ‘present’ rather ok. Like I look ok. I dress ok. My hair is brushed. And apart from when I am beyond the point of crisis and often already in hospital or done something, I physically look ok. But this unfortunately means that I’m dismissed a lot. I struggle with words at the best of time, even when I can verbally say that I am not ok, I’m still dismissed. There have been many a time where I have attempted to communicate that I’m not ok, that I need support but ignored only to end up in crisis and in hospital and then I get asked why didn’t I say something.
I do not at all mean any disrespect but I sit in the wait room at community mental health and see patients one after another come through the door and I look nothing like them.
but how do I manage this? I am so very often left feeling so frustrated cause the inside mess and torture that I am currently trying to deal with just doesn’t match the outside of me.
