CuddlebearSenior Contributor
Cuddlebears Space
Hello everyone I’ve made a space here.
I’ve been having a really rough time. I have experienced a lot of trauma and abuse since childhood. I’ve been on forums for a while now and thought to start a thread so that my journey and anyone that cares to see how I’m going and offer support or advice can find me here.
I have complex ptsd, anxiety and severe depression with anhedonia. I’m currently tapering antidepressant and it’s been brutal.
I am really struggling everyday and can’t find ways to feel better. I’ve tried so many things.
I am having daily panic attacks, my body shutdown and I am so lonely with very little support. There’s a real heavy darkness around me I feel so unloved and worthless. I can’t do basic things like shower, eat, clean and going out is very very hard. I have no purpose or meaning though I try to create it but nothing works.
More recently I’ve experienced passive SI and sometimes more active. The tapering I believe has caused these symptoms. I’m safe.
Im finding it hard to write this all up. I hope it gives you some insight. @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself@Chasingsunsets
