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Cuddlebears Space

Cuddlebears Space

Hello everyone I’ve made a space here.

I’ve been having a really rough time. I have experienced a lot of trauma and abuse since childhood. I’ve been on forums for a while now and thought to start a thread so that my journey and anyone that cares to see how I’m going and offer support or advice can find me here.

I have complex ptsd, anxiety and severe depression with anhedonia. I’m currently tapering antidepressant and it’s been brutal.

I am really struggling everyday and can’t find ways to feel better. I’ve tried so many things.

I am having daily panic attacks, my body shutdown and I am so lonely with very little support. There’s a real heavy darkness around me I feel so unloved and worthless. I can’t do basic things like shower, eat, clean and going out is very very hard. I have no purpose or meaning though I try to create it but nothing works.

More recently I’ve experienced passive SI and sometimes more active. The tapering I believe has caused these symptoms. I’m safe.

Im finding it hard to write this all up. I hope it gives you some insight. @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself@Chasingsunsets

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@Flutterbug9 Hello lovely how are you? Thank you. I really need the hugs.

I’ve had a lot of bad news this week. Struggling with all of it.

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Sorry to hear this week has been extra hard for you @Cuddlebear

@always here for you anytime you want to chat. (Either here or on my thread, whichever works best for you). 🤗

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@Cuddlebear how’s things my friend? Here are so froggy pics of there journey from egg to frog 🐸, the pics are all green tree frogs, I’ll start with sharing there cycle (found this one on Google, this one not a GTF however same cycle 😊)

 

 eggs laid, mostly always after some rain 🐸

Not sure why this one is loading so blurry on here 😞, little embryos after a day or two similar to this one below from Google

 

 tiny tiny

These pics are not coming out as well as they were taken so sorry in advance 😔

I’ll see if I can get any others

 

 

 there tummy’s are pretty cool this is a google image this one 😊

 most with just two legs here some with four 🐸

 

 nearly frogs 🐸

 

 they absorb there tail eventually at this stage, but mostly frog like now! 😊

 

 

 

 

 

 skip to the adults who made it 😁🐸

 

Hope you liked the pics 😊, my next pic drop for you is one special tadpole I had! Out of the hundreds that have become tadpoles I have only had one leucistic one! He/she was very cool to watch and I wasn’t sure how far this one would progress. 😊🐸

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And now for my golden girl/boy 🤩☀️🐸

 

 

 

 he took about 3-4 times longer to progress, wasn’t sure he would, it was good I kept having tadpoles so would put the younger ones in with him/her

 three legs start off really small and they get bigger like his here. It was pretty cool to see his grow legs actually! Not a lot on the net about these guys.

 his colour changed to highlighter yellow, his colour compared to his fellow green tree frog tadpole mates

 

Was hoping he’d grown arms…

 

Easier to see with his colouring- his arm is just under the skin, under the gills, he has arms!! Just not out yet.

 he got arms 🐸

 I was told he lacked the pigment to go green I wasn’t sure how he’d turn out if he made it.

 he made it and this was one of the last pics of him, even had a bit of green!

 

Absorbed his tale, about 3 times as big as a green tree frog baby. I hope he’s hoping around happy near by 🐸☀️

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Hello my @Cuddlebear ,

Here's a cuddle "HUGS".

I hear it is so hard right now and the tools in the toolkit don't always work.

I'm glad you are able to tell yourself that you are safe and you are okay when a panic attack sets in. You are so brave. I see your courage through all of this. I know it's not easy, so I really wanted to you to know that we are standing with you, and supporting you.

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Hello @Cuddlebear my beautiful friend, always thinking of you ❤️.

 

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Hello @Cuddlebear sweetheart, just dropping in to send you lots of love and hugs ❤️.

 

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Hello lovely. How are you? Thank you. Big hugs to you too.

@AlwaysMyself How are you lovely?

@Flutterbug9 How are you?

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Hi @Cuddlebear

Today is a fairly good day. Very lazy day, I’ve got zero interest in doing anything. I’m part way through peeling, cutting and putting vegies into microwave bowls, ready to put in microwave each night.

2 phone calls this morning. Arrangements made for My alfresco blinds due to be installed in couple weeks time and electrician to install a double power point the following day. It’s having no feelings about the jobs being completed soon that gets me down. Should be good once blinds are installed. I have zero feelings about it, not even slightest bit of excitement.

Mexican trains tonight with a lot of us having BBQ hamburger before it. I honestly enjoy the night once the game starts. Before and after, if I feel anything it’s of being flat.

I read a post by @AlwaysMyself saying they have lots of things happening next 2 to 3 weeks and is unsure if will be on the forums during that entire time.

Wilbur been enjoying the last few days of cooler weather?
bureau showing me as of tomorrow for about 5 days rain is expected day and night with pleasant day temperatures

have you had any update on discussions about possible removal of your teeth?

if the teeth are removed, what are your thoughts on maybe having dentures of some degree?

Cooler weather maybe allow you and Wilbur to get back into going for walks?

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@Cuddlebear wrote:

I’ve had a lot of bad news this week. Struggling with all of it.


Sending extra hugs @Cuddlebear 🤗. We are here with you (even if sometimes we're not online for a bit).

@Cuddlebear @Flutterbug9

Currently further north than where I live, and ooppphh the heat. Especially this evening - the place we are staying for the next week doesn't have aircon in the bedrooms, and it doesn't make its way from the loungeroom down to the bedroom. Consequently, it is past midnight and I'm still feeling a bit too hot for sleep! But I had better log off and try to get some sleep, as I do have to go out in the afternoon - not optional.

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