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Cuddlebears Space

Cuddlebears Space

Hello everyone I’ve made a space here.

I’ve been having a really rough time. I have experienced a lot of trauma and abuse since childhood. I’ve been on forums for a while now and thought to start a thread so that my journey and anyone that cares to see how I’m going and offer support or advice can find me here.

I have complex ptsd, anxiety and severe depression with anhedonia. I’m currently tapering antidepressant and it’s been brutal.

I am really struggling everyday and can’t find ways to feel better. I’ve tried so many things.

I am having daily panic attacks, my body shutdown and I am so lonely with very little support. There’s a real heavy darkness around me I feel so unloved and worthless. I can’t do basic things like shower, eat, clean and going out is very very hard. I have no purpose or meaning though I try to create it but nothing works.

More recently I’ve experienced passive SI and sometimes more active. The tapering I believe has caused these symptoms. I’m safe.

Im finding it hard to write this all up. I hope it gives you some insight. @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself@Chasingsunsets

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@tyme I am really panicked and so depressed. Just really hard existing right now. I am safe. But I’m not able to do anything at all. My body is so worn out and my mind just won’t stop worrying. My nervous system has shutdown. It’s frozen.

Nothing is helping to bring even a tiny bit of relief. I can’t stand it.

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Awww @Cuddlebear . That's so tough!

I'm sorry this is happening.

I know you said nothing is helping at the moment. I wonder if a cold shower or ice cubes against your skin will help ground you a little?

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@Shaz51 Thank you. I’m having a cold Coke instead. Quite hot here and not much food in my fridge so some Coke is at least refreshing plus some sugar.

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@tyme Honestly I struggle with showering at the moment. I am having a cold drink. Don’t have ice cubes.

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What about grounding activity with the cold drink, or a piece of chocolate? @Cuddlebear Try and really FEEL the sensation in your mouth?

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@tyme How are you lovely. I do grounding with cold drink however my symptoms are just too severe for the grounding to have an effect.

I don’t have any chocolate and don’t have much food at the moment.

I do appreciate the suggestions. At the moment the severity of symptoms means many things don’t bring the relief I need. When I’m a panic attack I use the breathing and telling myself it’s ok and that I’m safe. That helps shorten it but hard when you are on your own.

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@Bunniekins Hello lovely how are you? Not sure if I added you to this thread or not.

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@Cuddlebear hey hunny i think you did awhile ago but i had lost you. good to see you. xx

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@Cuddlebear just read through your posts. sorry to hear you are going through so much atm. hugs and hugs my friend. life can be so hard and i dont know what the answer is 😞

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