Heartathome

Good morning my sweet @REDLINEZ750

Oh, how I wish I could see you and give you a hug, but it will have to be virtual. It would be great to be able to talk freely but once again, not possible. It sucks but I'm glad I've met you on here! I feel close to you! Be proud to be my first close male friend in over 50 years! 💛

 @heartathome

I love how you can connect with me @REDLINEZ750 ! I had to get the magnifying glass out to read it sideways. 😄 I'm tempted to do something I know I shouldn't. I'm safe. Nothing like that!

Thanks for my postcard!! That's such a beautiful and unique thing to dol! I've never been sent a postcard over the internet before. It reminds me of the old days of posting letters.

You know I care deeply for you and glad that you're in my life!

P.S My phone didn't charge last night, and I've got to leave for lunch soon. I'll be back on later this afternoon.

P.S.S Enjoy your lunch. Places usually put on something special for Christmas day. Oh, and I was thinking gargling salted water could help with the ulcer. Always thinking! 😁 💛

So hope what your thinking isn't picking up id hate myself for thinking I caused that @heartathome

I have been given cedar oil from a participant and cloves from office I be like come at me now ulcer I'm hitting lunch hard hehehe

Please be well and know it's just another day for me in the sense that I don't need to be told what days to be kind and giving

I do that shit any day it's requisred

I'm still using the smoko from my psych. He'd like me to stop next year. I think I might have to do some begging although I'd save $200 a month if I stopped! That's a lot of money for me. I've been on it for such a long time @REDLINEZ750 It's always been there for me! I know you understand!

Please don't blame yourself for anything I do because I'm a big girl who makes her own decisions. You will never be to blame for something I do!

If anything, I think I'm a bad influence on you and now understand it's something I've been told over and over again. I think I need to keep every man at a distance to keep them safe from me. In the Pentecostal cult I was told I had a Jezabel spirit. It's not good!! Control, manipulation, pride or rebellion, seduction (emotionally), fear of vulnerability and difficulty submitting or trusting others. That's a nice picture of me apparently! You still want to be my friend? 😏

The other old record is I'm just not good enough. I might have to talk to God about this Jezabel. I haven't mentioned this before. I feel like I should be giving you a warning. Silly, hey but I do worry sometimes that it could be true. I just wanted to tell you what I've been thinking. Is it too much information? Too heavy? Will you worry about me? I hope not. I'm a strong woman! Having you in my life is a big change for me! It's scary for me to even think about it but I'd rather know now if it changes anything between us.

I've never heard of cedar oil being used before. Are you sure they're not trying to poison you?! 😄 Are you going to make an appointment to the dentist for your broken tooth.

I'm all good over my way. I went to church, had a cry then lunch, and it was nice. All us oldies were ready for a laydown after lunch. I lasted for three and a half hours, which was pretty good for me!

I was scared on the freeway but did it anyway! I like cruise control. I only found out this year how to use it! I have so many buttons on my steering wheel when all I use are the blinkers and wipers. The lights come on and off automatically.

I need to get my car aircon fixed and a wheel line and balance. I haven't had a wheel alignment for years. The tire place says it's time for an inspection but I'm ignoring that at the moment. I just pray God keeps my tires up and keeps me safe on the road before I go out. The roads are atrocious around here! Big potholes that you can fish in! 😄

I only got on to say goodnight! 😂 Oh well, there's something for you to think about. I would have told you earlier, but I only just realized where this fear was coming from. I'm going to send this off before I change my mind. 💛

Hey my close and dear friend @heartathome

Me I'm the guy that makes my own mind up and if I had a time machine I'd take them sssholes called you a jezzabell and other nonsense forward to today for a look through Westfield then send them back and you'd be given a halo so there's words mean shit they just saw a vulnerable child they could use to beat up with mosaic laws which don't even hold weight since Christ bleed on the cross.

Any way I get called the first part of that all the time so there fore you can be bell not first time I changed surnames haha

I'm going nowhere I'm used to seductresses they don't like me I ask too many questions and it makes them think I'm weird so guess they called that shot wrong too.

Man howed you sleep after putting that down before eyes close?

F###k them @heartathome

Nice work around the descriptive though, respected hahahahaa

I thought oh is that all was worried you were going lapse on something

Mate seriously I think about you everyday not because I'm under some spell because I like the conversation and I care about you strange person that's anonymous.

🙏👋

'I care about you strange person' I don't think anyone has complemented me like that before! 🤣 I really quite like being called strange. My friends would laugh and agree with you!

Thank you @REDLINEZ750 I thought you might need a least a day to think about it. 😊 You could be in trouble if it's true! I'm going to talk to a Christian psychologist when he gets back from holidays, who happens to be my Bible study teacher.

I was older with my son in nappies when I happened to find the 'church'. I was vulnerable, though! My best friend was the one who told me that I had that spirit. Yep. She's still my one of my favourite people! We both started going to the church around the same time. We were both sole parents and street wise. The bike scene was well and truly over by that time.

As I once told someone on here; I'm like a chameleon. I can morph into anyone in any situation. I'm not talking psychosis.

howed you sleep after putting that down before eyes close? It was 1am when I took more meds to sleep. I feel groggy today, not that I'm complaining.

I'm amazed one of the moderators or peer workers hasn't popped in yet. 😁 Have they rung you yet?💛

Nah not one person,

Wondered if that was your reference to doing something you shouldn't

I don't need anonimity I just respect the people that do

Your welcome to use it if only it's not hurtful to you in some way.

Personally it would be cool to at least put a voice to you no reason to share any location details what's a phonecall if stay within the boundaries.

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I didn't even know if it could be seen

Did I do wrong thing you think @heartathome ?

That may or may not be what I'm talking about! 😐