Heartathome

The Fingers of God - from Mount Warning at sunset (when you could climb it). It's a sacred place! 💛

@REDLINEZ750

Wow @heartathome magnificent

 last week I have taken some always for purpose of posting and just kept getting frustrated with being unable to stop long enough, I was feeling homesick from here and when I got on frustrated with restrictions I didn't have at home, totally untouched and natural colours, I love sunsets beauty

How are you my friend?

Manniemelted my heart

12 steps just never worked for me my addictions were always more trauma formed from trust so being told to trust to heal was always as far as I got in the programme.

Plus having a sponsor tell me alanon would teach my kids mother to be patient and support me through my sobriety so I did then when she left me she told me best thing I ever told her was go to alanon and called me stupid thinking what I did because what they told her is I I'm an addict and I won't change and she should leave me.

When I questioned my sponsor and AA members got told I must of hit her and never hit her and never went back

@heartathome I am respectful of the many lives it saves just wasn't mine.

Trusting others never has

Until these forums, I trust again slowly & wonder if it's my presence that makes people mislead or and abuse my nature which is sorrow that I can't ever know if trust is is real or just as anonymous as the people that now have it 🙂‍↕️

My support button isn't working! @REDLINEZ750 My meds have kicked and I need to go to bed. 😴

but first... my presence that makes people mislead or and abuse my nature I wonder where this is coming from. Is this about outside or on the forum?

I hope you don't think/ feel that I've mislead you in anyway or and abused your nature! I wouldn't lie to you. Dishonesty is my pet hate. My stories are real and I'm not a robot! I was going to say trust me. :face_with_rolling_eyes:

I can't ever know if trust is real or just as anonymous as the people that now have it. It sounds like something has happened.

Trust is a huge topic! Trust can take a long time to build and is open to risks of being hurt. You know that, because people are flawed and will let you down at times (not meaning to), but what a blessing it is when you can find someone you can trust.

I trust my acquaintances and friends at different levels. Only a couple get a high percentage of my trust! I can just see your brain ticking over! 💛

@REDLINEZ750 The restrictions (theirs or tech) are tough, hey? I'm glad nature is close by, and you get to see the sunset! How long have you got left in there now? I'm sure you've passed the halfway mark!

I've been okay! I've been hiding from the holiday influx as much as possible.

I've been on a bit of a roll, getting a few emails from SANE for things I've said and one breach since you've been away. So, it seems you're not such a bad influence on me after all! 😂

I remember now that you told me that about AA/ NA. I wouldn't go back either if I was accused of something I didn't do! Alanon didn't help you at all either and was wrong to say what they did about you! Addicts get clean all the time. I admire Eminem for one! Being sober (2008) in that field would be hard.

Do you trust anyone outside of here? I trust my psych. I would trust my son too, because I brought him up with honesty being the main thing. He's honest whether I like it or not and I prefer that!

I hope you have a good day @REDLINEZ750 Thinking of and missing you! 💛

I trust you

Oh, my heart! @REDLINEZ750 💛

Wish I could actually talk freely with you sometimes, I wish you smiles my dear friend Not just today but every day 🙏 @heartathome you are thought of no matter how lonely today may feel for you