~ Toolshed 2: Power Tools for Recovery ~

Pics just came through for me @MissGremlin .

I really love EVERY ONE of them today.

I am hoping you and others can read back on them as many times as needed today to remind of these things. 🥰

I’m hanging on to the wording with the firebird about finding a way to feel like myself again.

feels like that’s at other end of a very long dark tunnel atm, tunnel with only the tiniest speck of light

@MissGremlin

Hello @Flutterbug9, I hear you sweet. Keep focus on that tiny speck of light and I hope it gets bigger as you make your way through the tunnel.

Sending you lots of love and hugs sweetheart ❤️

@ENKELI It is really interesting that you would share this point of view with me at this moment. For it kind of puts things in perspective for me.

For years there have been people in my life angry with me for disappointing them someone with a mental illness. Like my in laws for example. For some influential people in my extended family thought it really important to try and smear me their dislike and hate any chance they got! Even trying very hard to set my children up against me when they were younger. (Luckily most of that treatment has or is dying out now.)

It was horrible having to go through those times. To have people hate me badly over the years, especially when i had fallen deepest, has been the worst part of my sufferings, and the hardest to forgive. Yet people who feel indifferent about me never came around to hurt me or try and entice my kids to hate me. What that concerns it is far better to have people feel indifferent about you than hate you. What you reckon?

@Jynx @MissGremlin @PeppyPatti @Rosepetal96

Those who understand wars begin in the human heart understand where the peace must be to end its world wide sufferings..When evil look your way fire them their flame!Believing words spoken by darkness blocks the Light of Day coming their Way.

@MissGremlin All amazing affirmations today sweet. You are an absolute amazing person here on the forums. You go out if your way to support and inspire despite feeling unwell yourself. So many of us really care about you. You’re part of the forum family.

@MissGremlin I really love the affirmations. All resonate. I love seeing these thwt you post up.

@MissGremlin stupid support button not working again dammit! thank you lovely for the beautiful affirmations. thinking of you even though i am far away. love you. bun xxx

@MissGremlin thank you sweetheart, I really need to hear these today of all days xoxo

@DownMoreThanUp I never experienced hate in my family, my father was emotionally abusive and manipulative and disowned me and I have family members now who have disowned me but I really don't care much about them anymore.
I have mostly felt supported with my mental health, especially by my aunt and brother.

I am struggling with hating my half sister at the moment and trying hard to give it to God. I know it's better for me to let go but she is such an awful person and I am struggling with her controlling behaviour that is to my detriment regarding my dad and his will.

I guess hate is the wrong word as I don't feel anything toward her aside from anger at her selfish behaviour. If I never hear from her again I don't care.

Unlike the majority of people here on Sane I had a wonderful upbringing, my childhood was without privilege and we were close to the poverty line but I had love from my family and friends. It's only as an adult that I was abused emotionally and financially. I was diagnosed with depression in my 30's and up until recently managed it well.

Now I have more down days than up and anxiety is a regular visitor.

Time to head off and step away! I don't like being of those people who constantly complains to get attention so I am planning on doing some praying and playing a game and finish my latest diamond painting.

Take care of yourself, I will check in later xo