I want to survive this and hear from other survivors like me

@Appleblossom remembering you all in my prayers tonight.

Love the image of God as protective broody bird

There lives the dearest freshness deep down things;
And though the last lights off the black West went
Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs —
Because the Holy Ghost over the bent
World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings.

Hopkins

Thanks both of you for caring @EternalFlower @Dimity

its 8.30

my son is playing gorgeous piano

my support worker is coming soon

the mantle I have been given to wear is not of my choosing

but that is the life most of us get

choice is only in a small window of opportunity or… options

hooe your days are as good as can be

@Appleblossom @EternalFlower the support button isn't working... hoping you're going ok

hi @Appleblossom @Dimity for me also sometimes it won't let me support posts either. hope you're doig okay today

Gentle hugs for you both @Dimity @EternalFlower

not wanting to write too much but checking in

🪺🐑🐴🐬🦢💙🍎

@Appleblossom I hope you are okay. The sky is very pretty hear at the moment, i thought i'd might go take some pictures.
I had an NDIS cleaner today, my Support Coordinator has gone missing, I was assessed for case management today, and i have no therapy. I do hope they accept me for case management.

@Realness @Former-Member Hello 🙂

hope u are okay

Last night i almost impulse bought a 400 dollar chair with my centrelink money.

Here we are, in moodiness and tryng to get by. Hope u are okay.

I do feel triggered at times, like I have no one I can trust. I don't even know what trust means. Everyone who comes into my life comes on so strong. The support workers aand peer workers groom me sometimes. They tell me we are the same and can be friends. Tht they so appreciate me. I do not like this. I like to feel gradually safe, and for someone to tune in to my experience as I tune in to theirs. I have 2 support workers and my GP - thats it. Thats what we told the case management team. They suggested I am fine because i have this. I told them I am not fine. I feel like no one will belive me how hard it is. There aer no words for it, my story is written by ppl who don't care about me 😞

Hi @EternalFlower

Thanks for reaching out.

I laughed at the chair - must have been some chair - glad you didn't buy it.

That's stressful - being assessed by other people. Hope you get the case management you want.

As always am struck by your honest sharing.

@Realness thats for that lol. Idk what was happening to me - i guess i feel like i need a "fix" in my life. I wander how I would have felt when the chair arrived. A large part of the fee was to ship it from interstate lol.

My gp said I'm likely to get acceptetd for case management - that I had a good chance. I hope so. It felt like having to sell myself as a good candidate. Like I had to fawn and apologise and be nice. Like life isn't always like that for some of us 😞 Probably good I didn't buy the chair lol.

@EternalFlower - thanks for the message.

It's quite a balancing act I think. Presenting the situation so that a person can get the help they need but not sounding so needy that people panic. Selling "poor me". I wonder if there's a better way of doing it.