really struggling

what a rough day!

starting to wonder if anything is going to go right with me. it always seems to one thing after another.

i feel like hiding away and just never coming back out

im starting to wonder if being alive is worth it.

Hi there @Former-Member,

I don't think we've officially "met" before on the forums.. I'm one of the moderators 🙂 it's nice to "meet" you.

I'm so sorry to hear you've had a bad day.. do you want to talk about it? Must be pretty awful to be thinking about whether its worth being alive anymore. Are you safe right now?

Thinking of you.

hi @Former-Member

i never seem to have a good day thats the problem!

everyday its something else piling up on top of each other and unfortunateley most of it will stat with me forever.

its diagnosis after diagnosis. go get this checked or that checked and everytime something else comes along and bam another condition, mt medical recor must be so big just after this year and late last year.

Yeah I can completely understand that you're sick of the back and forth... if you're having to have one referral after another, one recommendation after another, this ones opinion, that ones opinion. It's so hard trying to get consistent support/answers/feedback in terms of health. It almost sounds like you need a break from health professionals in general to just be yourself?! Inevitably when life feels like its getting on top of us everything seems to happen at once. I really hope things reach a turning point for you soon.

Are you doing anything kind for yourself tonight or tomorrow for self-care @Former-Member?

well @Former-Member

in the past 8 months ive been to a chiropractor with continued treatment and was diagnosed with a hip that will never be full right, neck and back degeneration already, a disk in my neck that slighlty bulges, and the top of my neck likes to roate so doesnt sit properly.

ive been to the gp psychologist and psychiatrist which have diagnosed me with severe ptsd, severe gad, social phobia, severe depression and insomnia.

ive been to a physiotherapist for an old ankle injury decided to gice this up but i went a few times

now i go to an osteopath for both my ankle anjury and my neck as i was starting to find the chiro was making matters worse still continued treatment

now ive got to see a podiatrist for my foot and i continue to see them

i also have a naturopath who deals with sleep and supliments. i continue to see them

ive also got a nutritionist so i could get balanced diet and continue to see her

then i have my gp who i have to see every week

oh and @Former-Member i forgot a few

ive also got my massage therapist wh if i dont use then my muscles get extremley tight and i get migraines

ive also been alerted later in life i could end up with liver/kidney issues and end up with gall stones as well. so i now have to be mindful of that.

ive also been to the optomestrist today and got few tests done. i need glasses for most of the time and with my family history could end up with cateracts or glaucoma

wow @Former-Member I'm not surprised at all that you're feeling so overwhelmed.

i dont want to live like it anymore

oh and i have to go for thyroid tests too

i honestly dont see a point in living anymore.

im a walking diagnosis!!!!!

i would expect this from someone older not someone who is only 20! @Former-Member