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really struggling

im really really struggling and i dont know what to do.

im tired and worn out and purely exhausted and so overwhelmed

ive recently been dagnosed with 4 mental health conditions and insomnia.

im caring for everyone and they still seem to expect more and more but i literally have nothing left to give. im completley worn out! and when i say everyone i mean my pop, my siblings, and my mum. my pop im actually a carer for so that i completelty done mind but why am i the only one making an effort elsewhere.

i literally have no friends, the only family i have are the above meantioned and i know its the not the end all but it would be nice it have just little bit of support as at the moment i literraly have nothing.

im working as both a carer and i also like a pet sitter but i only do horses. so in general i rug feed, treat wounds if neccessary ride, clean paddocks etc while people are on holidays only kind of busy trhough easter xmas and other special occasions. as well as cring for my own horses

i feel sick all the time, i shake like a leaf and im having trouble controllling anything and everything. i just cant handle it. its too much and i do know what to do about it

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hi @Former-Member

i never really thought of it like that...

yes going to these appointments are very scary and even using a hotline is scary most of the time

tonight im working on health issues and delaing with each one individually so again a challange

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well @Shaz51 im in the middle of doing house work as i have another hectic day tomorrow!

im also going through my health issues that need to be dealth with and how i can fix them and possibly creating a suicide prevention program

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hi @Former-Member

um i like to read, journall, draw and create stories of my own. i like to ride horses, go for bike rides and go for walks too. very strange but i aslo like to look at satellites of a night time

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Definitely scary @Former-Member! I know a number of people whose fear prevents them from being able to reach out, make those calls or ask for support. Through sharing what you were going through, or one day in the future (if/when you feel up to it) sharing your stories, you might inspire someone to push through their fear too.

Sounds like tonight you're being very proactive. Once again, go you! Remember to be kind and gentle with yourself too and take some down time from the hard stuff if you need.

Good stuff!

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All of that sounds great! Not strange re the satellites either. The night sky in general is amazing hey!

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yeah @Former-Member but im really struggling again. i think i may have pushed it abit too far. doing the safety plan is taking alot out of me 😞

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I can understand why that would be very tough. For what it's worth, I found it very difficult contemplating a safety plan and stopped there (and I have been dealing with mental health issues for a long time myself). I wonder what it would be like to listen to yourself saying that it's taking a lot out of you and just hitting the pause button on it tonight? Is it something you could leave for now, so you can do something enjoyable or relaxing and pick it back up tomorrow?

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yes @Former-Member im putting it away for now and going to continue with it tomorrow

im going to soak ina radox bath for a while 🙂

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Sounds pretty perfect @Former-Member 🙂

Hope you have a peaceful night and enjoy that bath!

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