Mixed feelings-might be getting another diagnosis (ED)

I can't answer that one @creative_writer . I know it's a question many people ask. For me, it was not about trying harder, but trying something in a different way. I don't know what this looks like for you though.

I hear how stuck you feel.

@tyme My psych wants me to re-evaluate therapeutic modality because we appear to be going around in circles. I’m still trying to figure it out. Maybe I need a more bottom up approach. Though I probably need to stabilise before unpacking because last thing I want to do is de-stabilise any further.

My psych wants me to talk to my pdoc about meds and a private admission. She think the instability is also making it hard to make use of therapy at a optimum level

At least this is a step forward. I think what we need to give you credit for is that you actually know and feel that things are working and you are willing and ready for a change @creative_writer That's the most important.

I completely agree with you and I think it's so normal to want to connect beforehand, it's incredibly important to feel safe and connected. @creative_writer

And you absolutely deserve a career and freedom - what does that look like in your mind's eye? I would love to know! 😍

It sounds like you're setting some really clear intentions around the kind of partner you want - I encourage you to keep holding this in your heart and energy. 🫶

I can understand how hard shame is to hold... I know I speak about compassion a lot, but I wonder if you could explore holding compassion for this part of you, even for a moment?

I hope your psychiatrist appointment goes well - you are absolutely not broken beyond repair at all. I have so much faith that this will shift for you, creative_writer, you're working hard to create change and tend to your needs. That takes a lot of self-awareness and courage - and you're doing it. That's huge. 🥰

Crying is okay and more than allowed @creative_writer.

When we have been through a lot, we feel a lot. And safely releasing it can be really helpful.

I hope you are able to get some rest tonight, but please don't hesitate to check back in if you need us. We are here for you; you're never in this alone. 💙