I am not doing so well

Hi @oceangirl, My day was totally horrendous...but that's ok. I'm not dead so I guess I'll get up and just keep swimming tomorrow . I'm glad to hear you won't let yourself get swayed into study. The constant message seems to be that education is the key to employment...yeah not so much in my experience!!!! I was far more employable twenty years ago before I ever went to uni. It sounds like you had a peaceful day. I hope you have an equally peaceful night. Sleep well .

Hi @Phoenix_Rising

Sorry you havent had a good day, I feel like my head is spinning in 3 different directions tonight after a busy crazy day. Fingers crossed tomorrow you have a better day.

lj

Hi again @Phoenix_Rising

I am sorry to hear your day was not a good one. Hopefully tomorrow will be better- what helps to ground you or makes you feel a bit better. I am just feeling depressed and anxious tonight. I am still really alone but I do get comfort from my forum family and my staffy dog Kira.

@Zoe7

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKmWd8DPrEc

I am really struggling atm.

I just can't cope much more.

I don't know what to do for the best.

Hi @oceangirl

I have just come in on the end of this thread. I was sadden to read that you are feeling sad and anxious. Is it because of your health issues or any pressure/stress to decide what academic road to take? I understand if you feel too tired to talk, but am here for you if you so wish.

How is the volunteering going?

You are such a caring and unselfish person @oceangirl - I have all the time in the world for people like you. You are not alone. Sending warm hugs 🤗💕xx

@oceangirl

Hi @Former-Member

Thank you for your message- I always have time to talk to you too @Former-Member

I think its a combination of things and its been a domino affect since Sunday/Monday. My energy levels seem to drop off quite quickly and today I spend the majority of the day in bed. I did get up and go to shops after 5pm to pay bills and I got some sushi for dinner.

I do know this feeling will pass but it seems even if I sleep it does not refresh me or give me much energy. I spoke to family today and they could tell I was really unhappy and I can't tell them why. I think tomorrow I will just get up and go to the pool and just sit in the sun.

My volunteer work is going well and learning new procedures and protocols each time I am there, I have basically done everything at the zoo. I enjoy working with my colleagues and interacting with the general public. And the animal collection is pretty kool too.

I saw my psych yesterday and that seem to make me feel worse and she really does not get me. I find it really hard to talk to her and I can't explain why I have started to unravel again. She continues to push me and I am just feeling really uneasy after seeing her. I think that is why I feel so alone because I don't get much relief from seeing her and I don't think she knows what to do.

I will phone her tomorrow and talk to her because I need to reach out and ask her for some help.

@Zoe7

Sorry I fall asleep last night but I did wake up to see that you where going to bed.

I fall asleep beside my laptop.

How are you?

@oceangirl That's so unusual for you to fall asleep so easily - hope you didn't type anything strange to anyone whilst asleep on your laptop lol

I'm ok. I had a really good day until this afternoon - when I had a minor meltdown. So I took some time out for myself - stayed off the computer and actually did some house work - I can now see the kitchen bench again

I was going to post a few messages then jump off again but saw your post and then that you were struggling so I stuck around. Glad that I did!

Did you make any decisions today or was it just too hard to do?