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Hi @tyme @AuntGlow,

Well after a non-optimal evening yesterday, I stayed in bed a bit later this morning and listened to the rain on the roof, which I love listening to. Also the rain meant I didn't have to water the garden.

I tried do things to distract myself

I suppose I'm a bit numb, and unbelievably tired

Ah, that really does sound so lovely @Till23, I find the rain incredibly calming too.

Numb and tired make perfect sense... would you like to talk about your psych appointment at all? 💛

Yes @AuntGlow I think anything that is to do with nature I like, rain on the roof is a sort of special one because it takes me back to my early childhood when things were not so bad and I was living with my family of origin.

I don't want to waste PSWs time as I feel you are already really over stretched. @AuntGlow @tyme

Do you have other things that help to bring you back to that sense of peace or safety? @Till23 💛

You are always allowed to share your needs, fears, and hopes with us - we want to be here for you. I will respond to all of this properly when I am back tomorrow, okay? But please know this isn't because I don't want to talk or that you're not a priority - I just have to finish now! ☺️

I hope you get some rest tonight. ✨

Of course @AuntGlow, I know you finish your shift at 10pm and you PSWs definitely need to take time for your self-care and just have some space. As I said I think you PSWs are stretched pretty thin at times.

Good afternoon @Till23, how are you feeling today? 💛

Just coming back to your message from last night now, and honestly, how you are feeling is completely valid - I would be feeling the same. The lack of real discussion doesn't sound fair at all, and everyone I know who this has happened to has felt a sense of confusion and hurt.

You are absolutely worthy of more than just survival, you are allowed to thrive and enjoy your life - and I am excited to watch that unfold.

I don't want to delve too much into positivity without first acknowledging how hard this is for you... but I am wondering how you feel about the idea of rejection being redirection or protection? I am thinking maybe there could be an element of this here that we could lean into. What are your thoughts?

Hi @AuntGlow how are you this afternoon?

It’s been a sunny day here, which has been good and I got my sheets and towels dry.

Can you explain what you mean by “the idea of rejection being redirection or protection?” I don’t think I really understand what that means

I am feeling slightly stressed due to my house-hunting process! But other than that, I am feeling well, thank you for asking. @Till23 💛

Ah, sunny days and dry sheets - what a win!

I am glad you had the courage to be honest too, it sounds like you really needed to share what was coming up for you. It's quite positive that they are giving you a closure/transition session. Do you think you will ask more questions/share more about how you are feeling?

Well, there is this idea that when we are 'rejected' from something, it's more so a case of being redirected towards a situation that is more aligned with us. Or, protecting us from something that isn't conducive to our growth. I guess it's the notion of something bigger at play, like God's/The Universe's protection, for example. I hope this makes sense. ☺️

Heya @Till23 , How are you?

Hi @AuntGlow and thanks for your response.

I am sorry to hear you are having to house-hunt. It is so stressful.

Almost 30 years ago when I lived in Melbourne I remember how difficult it was trying to secure a rental, you'd turn up for a look with 30 other applicants. My last place I only got because I'd been with the real estate agents for a few years. That was 30 years ago!

Plus then when you find a place you have to move, change your address everywhere etc

I am so lucky to have secure housing currently and I am unlikely to have major problems now.

Anyway, I'll leave you to get on to other things