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I've worked on tracking data to see which are the 'busy' days, but I've never found a trend. I just know that evenings are heaps busier than mornings @Till23 .

As for how you feel at the moment, it is our body's natural rhythm to have these feelings in the evenings. This is evolutionary where people had to be more alert in the evenings as a way to stay safe. Hence, our evolutionary brain produces chemicals to keep us more alert. Know this is normal.

The big question is, What do you do about it?

At this very moment, I have a mindfulness program playing for my niece to help her control her breath and go to sleep. I wonder if this might be helpful for you too?

Yes @tyme the difference between mornings and evenings is quite stark. The day variation not so much and some times there's a variation depending what is in the "news of the day" or some viral post!

I have been slack with the NAIDOC stuff though.

Yes I am aware of circadian rhythms and the cycles of cortisol etc releases (in "healthy people" actually cortisol rises just before awakening so you can get up).

Yes I have a wind down to sleep routine and when I am well, I have no problem falling to sleep for past many years. However, when I have a particular "thing" occurring or been "triggered" (that word is so over-used) it is different. There is adrenaline surge, which in the day I would immedicately address with physical activity if possible. Yes I sometimes do some squats or push-ups at night.

I do need to address some things with psych though, I feel pressured because I am now paying $230 a session because my MHCP sessions have been used up until next Jan. Something so needs to be done about that ridiculous situation of funding for MH

I just wanted to stop by and say goodnight, I will respond to you more tomorrow @Till23 💛

Hi @AuntGlow @tyme (although I think I remember reading in another thread last night that tyme was not going to be on the forums for a couple of days. I could easily have got that wrong though - so decided to tag tyme anyhow)

I am trying to keep myself busy, but it's a bit difficult to concentrate - I have chopped some firewood which is good physical activity. Unfortuantely it's cold and windy where I am. I am going to do a bit more ironing I think.

Hey @Till23 , all good if you tag me in.

Your post is very interesting. I like how you mentioned "in my mind I have decided it's because I must be not a nice person or too complex or whatever". I like how you were able to separate your mind from yourself and it seems that there is space to 'work with' this thought.

Sorry if I sound confusing.

So in other words, you are able to reflect that this is what your mind has decided as opposed to YOU have decided.

In that space, we can also work with:

- the psych knows they are not equipped with the skills to work with higher levels of dissociation and therefore, they may feel it is not right to keep you paying for sessions that may not help in this aspect.

- the psych is aware that dissociative episodes are one of your bigger concerns at the moment, and they want you to have someone who is more specialised in this area.

What do you think? @Till23

@tyme , you not having your usual days off xx

Hello @Till23 😊

it's just for this week and maybe next week. I'm not going to work this Sunday @Shaz51 @Till23 .

Thanks for your response @tyme I thought you weren't on tonight, but here you are. Sorry about tagging you Peer Support Workers who are obviously busy, busy, busy! I am having a few things happening at the moment.

So it feeds into the Not Good Enough.

Anyhow, no sense in complaining about it here, I have to find a way to keep putting one foot in front of the other. There are plenty of other people in worse situations and that's where resources should be directed

@AuntGlow

Oh OK 👍 @tyme

Hubby had lots of blood tests today and we get the results Friday

Doctor is not sure what it is @Till23

@Shaz51 are you talking about his recent dizziness? Sorry I think I haven't kept up.

How are you going with all this?