Functioning with ADHD

@AuntGlow toilet and shower thoughts are entirely something else. Sometimes you need to change environments to get clarity over thoughts.

It’s all a loop, ADHD makes you more stressed, but when you’re more stressed ADHD is worse. It means you have the address the whole picture. I want to be able to achieve my goals but also be emotionally regulated. I’m not sure how to get there, I’ll try to talk to the pdoc tomorrow during my appointment

I had my pdoc appointment this morning, he just gave me some anti-anxiety meds and said taking cognition supplements is okay. I'm so exhausted now

i'm so glad you finally got to chat with your psychiatrist!! @creative_writer i hope getting that answer from them around the cognitive supplements also provided you some relief?

got any restful activities planned for today?

@rav3n I don't have access to the cognition supplements or meds he recommended yet, just took a bit extra of my current supplement , I am hoping that calms me for now, until I can get meds. I am still anxious, but it probably hasn't been long enough. Still pretty heightened.

Probably just regular self-care like prayers, relaxation stuff. I do have job related stuff to do, not ideal, but it needs to be done

Yes! The anxious/shut down loop is real; you're not alone in this at all. @creative_writer 💛

I am happy your pdoc supported you with some medication - how are you feeling other than exhausted at the moment?

@AuntGlow I’m feeling a bit better, so maybe the l’theanine did do something. I first started taking it as a response to med tolerance. I think I’ve become a bit tolerant to the Antipsychotics. He cautiously prescribed the anti-anxiety due to addictive effects. I don’t think it’ll hurt to have them at home even if I don’t take them everyday. They’re not meant to be taken for long periods anyways.

I’m sort of scattered brain right now. I have things I need to get done, but can’t seem to do it

That's great to hear @creative_writer - small wins, love this.

They can definitely be helpful when you really need it, and I trust you to act cautiously because you're so aware of your body and what impacts it!

Hmm, what is the easiest/most accessible thing you have to do tonight?

@AuntGlow if I’m going to be honest, I have used substances to cope emotions before, especially recently. My pdoc gave me a small dose and limited supplies. I won’t be able to get the new meds until tomorrow. I have something important tomorrow morning.

The forums have been great and supportive, but I feel like I’m becoming annoying now. I’m sorry, it’s just been rough.

I think I probably need food, you know I have a bad habit of not eating between lunch and dinner. Maybe grounding and prayers will help. Maybe I should stop putting lots of pressure of myself in terms of prayers, I feel like I never seem to do enough because I find it hard. Even short prayers are something

Thank you for sharing this with me. We all cope in sooo many different ways, and what always matters to me most is that you are as safe as possible with what you are doing. @creative_writer

No, not at all! We are so glad to have you here and very happy to know the forums have been great and supportive! ☺️

Honestly, food is so grounding. I know it's tough... what could you stomach right now?

Absolutely! Your prayers could be a silent sentence to yourself - I believe they will be heard no matter what your prayer looks like. 💛

@AuntGlow I don’t think my pdoc was happy about it. I just did what I thought I had to survive. I have bipolar, I know there is a vulnerability with that. Maybe it did make me more unstable? But it helped me feel better for a short period of time. Now he has given me something to manage my anxiety levels. I can’t use the other thing I was using before, no supplies.

I feel kind of stupid in a way. I feel like other people need more help. I feel like I should get over these urges and be able to let go of intrusive trauma thoughts. I can’t seem to do it.

I just had safe food, brown rice, chicken and beetroot. I hope you were able to have something to eat