I totally understand loud thoughts making it hard to function @creative_writer.
Honestly though, toilet and shower musings are always the best.
It seems like there's a lot of internal and external pressure around achieving or being productive? No wonder you're feeling so stressed! You're not lazy or stupid, but I understand why you might be thinking you are - this is very common in those who experience ADHD. But to me, it sounds like you're needing something more to feel more supported and regulated whilst trying to achieve all that you have to do - do you know what that might be?
I am glad to know you are safe tonight. 💕