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So I’ve come off one of my meds, it’s the first day I’ve been without it for years. I feel so much calmer, but a bit foggy, sleepy and migrainey. Not sure if that’s withdrawal or exhaustion built up from the really rough patch I’ve come out of. I can finally say I’m not in a mixed episode. I’m sort of unfazed by the body flashback I’m having. I’m just a little confused. Has the discomfort become easier to sit with (is it a sign of progress?) or am I disassociating?
I did not sleep well last night and now I’m irritated and my head feels heavy. I thought I was getting better
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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It’s like everything I do, I still end up feeling agitated, restless and irritated. I’ve got some productive stuff done this morning, had lunch and distracted myself by watching TV. Yet, I’m still feeling like shit, it’s not going away
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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I want to know how to get rid of these intrusive violent thoughts/urges. I’m safe
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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I’m starting to wonder if I’ve done something wrong to get this unwell again. I thought this was behind me, I hadn’t had suicidal ideation for a week and now it’s back. These images won’t leave, I haven’t done anything so far, but it’s hard.
I’m safe
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JynxModerator
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@creative_writer mental health struggles aren't a punishment hun. You haven't 'done something wrong' - hey, a whole week without SI urges is AMAZING progress! Having them return does not undo that progress at all!!
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx maybe I’m unwell and going through changes. I’ve had a lot happen with stopping a meds (as it was making me feel worse), I have a heavy head right now, got an infection but I think it’s clearing slowly. I’m also hoping to get into specialists soon, one to remove the cyst around my tear duct and the other with rheumatologist (they said they’ll be in touch). The rheumatologists have been so booked out, COVID disrupted a lot. My mind is a confusing place, not sure what caused a spike in emotions, maybe it’s a combination of things. I was very panicky last night and was so scared. I know sometimes you have to trust fate. I was going through photos recently. Maybe I’m afraid, you never really know when will the last time you see someone be
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