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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Hi @MissGremlin

I hope this message catches you sleeping after some Buffy and Angel watching. It can be really tricky when the weight of things catches us off guard and more so when it makes sleep hard to find.

I know seeing chasingsunsets picture will be a glimmer for you, and perhaps in the morning you will get your colouring out again and keep adding your creativity to the forum.

If you need extra support when you get up be sure to reach out - the community is here for you

Mindee 🙂

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Lovely catching up on @MissGremlin and @Chasingsunsets chat last night 😊.

That's a pretty neat skill you have @MissGremlin to be able to see the pattern before any of it is coloured!

@Chasingsunsets we could do the dot-to-dots together lol. I have had one of those books for a decade or more - my sister bought it for me once for a birthday or xmas gift. A few weeks ago my mum saw one at a charity store and bought it for me too, not realising I already had it lol. So now she has one too!

Doing dot-to-dot made me realise how numerically-dyslexic I am 🤣. I really should do them with pencil, like you do - that is smart. For some reason I think I mostly did them in pen? 🤣 But either way, having to erase it is yep annoying hahaha. Maybe I should go half-way and use my erasable (frixion) pens! I bought them for logic puzzles, but then I forget to use them lol. They're coloured.

Wishing you both (plus @NightFury ) a good day. 😊

Hope you all have some self-care / hobbies planned after/between your daily chores/errands.

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Hello @Mindee, thankyou for your post. I watched Angel and Buffy for a while and eventually fell asleep but I've woken up today still feeling much the same (I'm safe for now) so I've started doing more of my picture and hoping to keep everything at bay.

I think trying to stay connected here today and keeping up with distractions will hopefully help.

Thankyou for all the amazing work you guys do behind the scenes, always so supportive for the community ❤️.

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Hello @AlwaysMyself sweet, how are you feeling today? We had some good chats last night, it was nice ☺️.

Haha its the same with those weird eye illusion pictures, can't think of what they're called but I can see them too 😂.

I'm working on my picture again.

Hope you have a lovely day ❤️

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Oh, the Magic Eye or whatever yep. I remember those @MissGremlin .

Enjoy your picture 😊.

I just got back home and am going to setup my jewellery to clean (or, the ones that are safe to) and let it go while i relax for abit. Feeling tired from the morning outing and heat, which has made me feel grumpy like an overtired toddler haha. Nothing im grumpy *about*, so just need to sit in the aircon and cool down and eat and maybe some tv until i feel better, then i can do painting or maybe my laundry or kitchen for a bit.

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@AlwaysMyself I've just paused for some food myself.

Hope you can relax after popping the jewellery in to clean. It's ridiculously hot here today and I have to go out after in my car with no aircon, not looking forward to that. Enjoy your aircon and TV and I hope you find something yummy to eat. Take care of yourself sweet ❤️

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@AlwaysMyself wrote:

I think I prefer 101 Dalmations to 101 Notifications, @tyme 😂 (sorry, just added one more).

Don't worry about my tags tonight - I'm doing OK. Take them off your list until things slow down for you another day.


Hahaha! Love it! Hrmmm... can you believe it?? Come to think of it, I don't think I've ever watched the full movie of 101 Dalmatians! I just remember that evil lady who hates the dogs.

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Tonight I worked up the courage to talk to a service about something very personal and something i haven't shared with anyone. It's left me feeling so ashamed and vulnerable and i feel stupid for even talking about it. Talking about it makes it feel so much more real and confuses me even more as to what is happening to me. I just want to curl into a ball and cry but yet I can't, i feel numb in a way. I'm safe, but I truly feel so fragile and broken 😞.

I'm about to watch Buffy and Angel while I do some colouring. I'm hoping it will take my mind off of things.

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Please be kind to yourself. @MissGremlin It takes a lot of courage to reach out and open up.

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Sitting with you @MissGremlin 💜, your colouring that you finished looked awesome by the way.
Is there anything you’d find helpful tonight on my end 🙏

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