Battles

No problem @MissGremlin, I hope you can get what you need from them and hope I haven’t triggered you in anyway, I guess to put my story in context it was about my AI stuff but recognise the challenges for people to get what you need over all.

Big hugs to Casper and hope you might be able to check out that reel/add, it’s beautiful. Thinking of ya and take care

@Chasingsunsets you haven't triggered me at all sweet. Just alot going on and my doctors appointment really hasn't helped in how I'm feeling.

I'll give Casper some hugs for you. I'll check that video out while I'm waiting to get through.

Sitting with you @MissGremlin, your aren’t alone. 🌻

I just got home and we are both in bed, Indi is trimming one of her dew claw nails I hate the sound 🙈 I’m glad she does it though as she doesn’t like her nails clipped however she will let me do them if she needs them done but not her favourite thing.

Thankyou @Chasingsunsets.

Hope Indi has finished trimming her dew claw now. Can imagine the sound would be rather annoying though.

When the service that your doctor does a referral to yesterday rings the doctors surgery telling them that they can't support you. Leaving it to my doctors surgery to ring me and tell me that i can't get support through them and they see on the system that I've been let down by so many places. It's now 2 weeks until I have another appointment with my doctor, another 2 weeks of no support and struggling to get through each day.

It hurts so much, what's so wrong with me that noone can or will help me. Those words from the psychologist all those years ago 'that I'm a lost cause' they are hitting so hard now cos I can't get help and it feels like I'm just too broken to be fixed and that I don't deserve to be helped.

I feel so let down, I feel vulnerable for putting myself out there, I feel ashamed for being like this, I feel scared for not knowing what the future holds if anything.

I'm safe but I'm frustrated and feeling very emotional. I just needed to get this out.

I'm laying in my bed with Casper, tears rolling down my face. I'm going to try to sleep.

Good afternoon, lovely. @MissGremlin

I can't even imagine how painful and disheartening this news must have felt. I am so sorry. You deserve so much better...

Please know that everything you are feeling is so, so understandable. 💛

You have been incredibly brave in putting yourself out there and we are all incredibly proud of you - we see how hard you are trying, you're doing all the right things.

What else did the GP say? And have you accessed our 1-1 supports in the last 6 months? 🫶

I'm so sorry this has happened @MissGremlin It really doesn't seem fair! You're an extremely beautiful person without a face! I can imagine how hard it is to have any hope at the moment. 🥹 I wish I could come over for a cuppa and sit with you. 💜

Hello @AuntGlow, it wasn't the GP that rang me, it was just the ladies at the front. The service that rang them today to say they couldn't help recommended another service that I need to contact as that's my local one but that's the one my gp just did a referral to that wouldn't help 😞. I feel like I'm out of options cos everywhere I turn it's just the same thing, I don't know what to do (I'm safe).

I've never accessed the support from sane but I'm scared to even try cos what if I'm let down again 😞.

I woke up at lunch time to a message from my friend to ask if I wanted to go to the shops with her. I told her that I'd love to so she picked me up and we went out for a bit. She had her bubs with her and it's the first time I got to meet her so I held her basically the whole time we were at the shops. It was nice to get out and for a bit I was distracted but then as soon as I'm home alone everything comes crashing down again and then I get angry at myself for allowing myself to even feel ok. Why can't I allow myself to feel happiness?

I'm sitting here crying thinking about making a cuppa and finding something to do.

Good to hear you spent some time out today @MissGremlin

Can you give Casper a hug to help you through this?

Please remember to reach out if you need to speak to someone 1:1

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@tyme I've got Casper with me.

Only one of those is an option for me but thankyou anyway.