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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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@Ru-bee resting didn't happen 😞.

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Hi @MissGremlin just checking in and seeing how you're holding up?

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@NightFury I'm having a really hard time over here 😞(I'm safe). I'm about to fold up the washing as a distraction.

How's things over there for you sweet?

Did you wanna have a cuppa?

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@MissGremlin sitting with you, hun.

I don't judge you, or think badly. I know you care so much. I hope you can be kind and gentle to yourself through this; you are well-intent and caring and loving. That is never in question.

Sorry to hear about yesterday's occurrence. Here for you.

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Oh hun!

I have a headache, and have had to take a phone call regarding those referrals to private clinics and because I haven't booked in anywhere, or even chosen a clinic, I'm feeling a bit like a failure. @MissGremlin and it's going to be reported back to my GP.

But I did go for a drive and brought a box of cherries.

We can have a cuppa, though, I might go for a cold drink instead.

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Thankyou sweet @AlwaysMyself ❤️.

It's just been one thing after another and it's wearing me down, although I was already worn down. I know i shouldn't have rushed into it and I do regret that but it felt right in the moment.

How are you going?

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Oh my sweet @NightFury, you are certainly not a failure. I'm sure your gp will be understanding in all of this. It's not an easy thing to pick and also not something that should be rushed into without finding what one is going to suit you best.

Yay for going for a drive and getting some cherries.

I'm going to make an iced coffee and we will have a nice cool drink together.

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I don't know. I didn't know how to explain to the lady on the phone and I just wanted to ask for help with it, but she didn't even offer. I want support, and I don't want it to look like I don't.

Nice @MissGremlin I think I've changed my mind about having a cold drink. I think I might go for a hot one...

I'm going to make myself a caramel coffee.

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@NightFury Sounds like the person on the phone call doesn't quite understand the feeling of overwhelm in going through the steps. We know you're making progress, we know you're doing well and doing what you can do. I hope your GP also understands this and supports you in this process. Was it you or @MissGremlin who had a team of people helping them call around to the various psychs to find one that was both suitable and available? I'm wondering how that has gone, if they have had any success?

@MissGremlin It can be so hard to know without trying - and trying is ok! Of course we look for things that "feel right" -- as we should, we need relief from the pain and distress. As @NightFury said, maybe now just isn't the right time for you, and that's OK also. I wonder if it could be framed as just the "trial didn't work out", or it was a "friend for a week" visit for the dogs? I don't think the dogs would say they would have preferred to never have had that time together, even if it was limited.

Hoping you both have a lovely virtual cuppa 😊. I had a cold-chocolate milk (which of course didn't disolve the choc powder properly) at time just before. Didn't feel like going out to the cafe with my friends. But in hindsight I wish I had instead gone by myself to the local cafe to get out of the house and have a treat and buy some carrots to munch on. Cafes are closed now though, oh well.

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@NightFury oh sweet that's really tough. Is there an option to email? Sometimes it can be easier to type things out rather than verbally saying it.

A caramel coffee sounds yummy.

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