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Okay. Keep connected here, my friend @MissGremlin hugs.

@NightFury I'll try to, I know I need to. Thankyou sweet. I have lots of tears today, there's just so many things and it's all happening at once (I'm safe).

Tears are completely understandable @MissGremlin and justified. It's a hard decision to have to make and it hurts.

@NightFury not sure if this needs a trigger warning but I'm safe now.

then there was being verbally and physically abused when i went to the shops yesterday which left me shaken. This was after having a seizure in the morning so I was already feeling fragile and emotional.

I just got the phone call back and the lady is coming to pick up Stella within the next couple of hours 😞.

@NightFury she just got picked up 😞. Casper was confused when I came back inside without her, I've just given him a goats horn so he's happy. I have lots of tears. Going to see if I can do something to distract myself.

I know how hard that exchange is @MissGremlin I've had to do it, so I know how you feel.

Hugs.

@MissGremlin I know that you've had to make a really difficult decision and want you to know that I'm thinking of you. 🥹 I know you gave it a great deal of thought and can imagine you'd be devastated. I just want to sit with you for a minute... 💜

Hey @MissGremlin that was a really hard decision to make but it sounds like you did make the best one you could with all of the things that you had to consider 💜

We're all here with you

@NightFury it's a horrible thing to have to do. Thankyou sweet ❤️.

Thankyou sweet @heartathome for sitting with me ❤️. It's really hitting hard 😞.

Hello @Ru-bee, thankyou ❤️. I know it might have been the best decision but it doesn't make that decision any easier. It really does hurt so much and I feel like I've failed. My biggest fear was having to tell the community here and being judged for giving up on her. I'm going to try to sleep cos I don't like my current headspace and the thoughts that are going through my head, I dont like how they make me feel unsafe within myself. In saying that I'm safe though and will reach out to the appropriate services if I need to. I'm just scared and hurting and I still haven't recovered from yesterday's events.

The right decisions are the hardest sometimes @MissGremlin Rest well and we'll be here when you feel ready