Battles

@Flutterbug9 sending you gentle hugs sweet, we are here for you ❤️.

Just wanting to share what's happening at the moment and how I'm feeling. I'm safe for now, just feeling really low and battling my thoughts.

It's proving to be a really rough night for me. Things are feeling really heavy, my thoughts are so very dark and urges are strong. I've been trying to sleep but the pain from my tooth infections is too much to get any shut-eye, I've tried every possible way to get some relief from it but nothing is helping. I feel so worn down and like things are never going to get better. I'm finding that I have very little patience at the moment and I get overwhelmed so quickly that I don't even get a chance to catch myself before it gets to a point of things bubbling over.

I've been trying to get through to a crisis service to talk but they are busy tonight. Then part of me feels bad for bothering them when others need support more than I do.

I'm laying here with Casper with a hand on him and focusing on his breathing and trying to slow mine down to match his.

@Mindee i managed to doze off briefly but i just woke up in a panic 😞. Back to trying to reach out to a crisis service and holding Casper while i work on calming down. I have tears, i feel so defeated, i just want to sleep. (I'm safe for now).

@Mindee i can't get through to the crisis service, it's unable to connect me cos they are busy. So I'm on my own trying to calm down and process what's happening. (I'm safe).

I’m sorry things got so rough for you last night @MissGremlin. I’m hoping you are currently getting some sleep.

I hope things are a little better for now.

Sorry if i added to it.

@MissGremlin *big hug, holding you safely*

I hope you were able to drift off again, and no pressure to reply - you will likely be tired today i can imagine i would be.

Pain is so hard, i struggle to sleep also if i have pain. And dental pain is known to be particularly painful for people. The feelings you described of being overwhelmed from it all is really relatable for me of when i have heightened pain for a sustained time. I feel ya. Im so sorry you are experiencing it. I really hope the antibiotics start their magic work soon and that some painkillers can help give some relief.

There was something else i was going to say but i've forgotten what, oops!

Also sending hugs to @Cuddlebear @Flutterbug9 who i read also have had a difficult day yesterday. Hoping today can be a new start again, fresh.

I am back home with my pets (since yesterday afternoon). My girl dog was happy to sleep on my bed with me again. However she did decide to put herself to bed on my mums bed earlier in the night, as well as my male dog going down to my mums area to rest also - despite both my mum and I being upstairs together! My dogs are very much creatures of habit so once they get used to sleeping somewhere they keep returning lol. It is nice though that they can either be with my mum when i am not home or with me when i am.

Maybe this story gives you a smile about my dogs still using her bed.

Hi @Captain24 , i hope you're doing OK? Thinking of you also, and your dogs. 🥰

Big hugs @MissGremlin

Checking in on you this morning, after what sounds like a really rough night. Here for you, my friend.

Morning @Captain24 @AlwaysMyself

Hey @MissGremlin

I was thinking of your teeth.. I have this mouthwash that may help numb it for a little while. You have to get it from the chemist, it’s a little expensive but much cheaper than seeing someone. It also may help clear it up quicker