Battles

@MJG017 glad you got most things done. Eww to having to go to the shops but going for a drive to the beach after sounds nice. Hope the early night works out for you.

Oh that's so rough not just those conversations but being the one left out, that's really not what you needed and I'm sorry that it happened. Today can really just go suck a big fat one, I'm really glad it's almost over. Can only imagine how hard the day was for you aswell. I'll send those hugs with no physical contact ❤️.

I really didn't get up to anything. Was going to start a new picture, got everything set up but then got triggered by another post on Facebook so I packed everything up and chatted to people on here. Casper is snoozing next to me, so I'd say he's good. He gets lots of belly rubs, he had to have a bath yesterday as he decided to sit in his pee.

@MJG017 what's the point of having a crisis service for people that are feeling suicidal if your not even going to help them. I reached out to them once early this morning when I was struggling and then i just tried to chat to someone now as I'm struggling with my thoughts. But I didn't even get to talk to anyone, I just get the message to say that I've already talked to them once today so they won't interact with me again. I plan on trying to lodge a complaint tomorrow if i can find the right words cos I don't even know why I was restricted in the first place. I've been waiting in a chat queue with lifeline for an hour. I need to talk to someone but I can't even do that. I hate that everything is so intense right now, i just want out.

@MissGremlin

I'm really sorry about what happened with the crisis lines. A little bit of compassion and understanding doesn't seem like a lot to ask for. But apparently it is.

I really don't even know what I can tell you other than I try to understand and Im always more than happy to talk to you. I consider myself very fortunate to know you and you inspire me to find ways to keep going in the darkest of times. We'd all be so worse off here without you around here. So if the crisis lines aren't helping you then shame on them... We'll just have to do their job for them. You deserve far more support and kindness than this. I will always try to help where I can and I really hope it helps even a little. Even if it just reminds you that you are far more than how you are treated. Far more.

@MJG017 and then people wonder why i don't feel worthy of compassion.

I always enjoy our chats and it really means so much to me to know that you are there for me even when you are struggling yourself. Thankyou for the kind words, it's nice to feel like I'm actually cared for and that i have a place here. I'm glad I've been able to help you and I'll always continue to do that.

It's just so frustrating when you try to reach out for support only to be let down, makes one question everything and feel like they don't matter. I'm always left feeling like I'm not worth helping, I'm just too messed up for anyone to deal with.

Anyway I'm glad to be able to chat to you and it does help me alot ❤️.

That's it, I'm done. I can't take it anymore, the stress, being hurt, being screamed at. I'm out.

Hi @MissGremlin ,

Sound like you are going through one of the rough moments. Just want to let you know there are many others sitting here with you. You have information about some other services you can use, so don't hesitate to reach out to get the support you need.

@MissGremlin

The way people treat us and how they make us feel isn't what we are. It's how they see us. We're bothfar better than that and deserve better. It'swhy we need to stick together and help each other as much as we can.

It's sounds like you're having and extremely difficult time right now. Is there anything I can do to help? Try to take yourself away from where you are now and bring yourself here where we care about you, respect you and want to help you. I know it's so hard right now, but we are here for you.

@MJG017 honestly i don't know what to do right now.

Thanks @GardensHeart and @MJG017. Just feeling completely overwhelmed right now and really fighting myself to not want to act on my thoughts. I've given up reaching out to other services cos I'm constantly let down and usually end up worse than when I started.

Really just not sure what to do right now, it's all too much for me and it's the same thing day in day out. I want off of this roller-coaster called life. I just can't deal with anymore.

@MissGremlin

I know it's so difficult for you right now. And you've given up reaching out. But you are reaching out right now to us, and we're here and you know we'll listen and do what we can to support you as much as possible. If nothing else, it shows the problem is with those services and in no way you or you not being with helping. You definitely are, and so try not to let a broken system make you feel otherwise. Easier said than done I know, but since when was any of this easy?!