Battles

you don't need to thank me at all 💙 @MissGremlin i can definitely relate to that, i've always felt like i gotta act 'happy' to fit in and it felt so fake and exhausting. i love that quote you mentioned too.
i can't remember if i've shown you this or not, but it's from winnie the pooh, and seeing this really helped me change my perspective:

@rav3nyes I always tried to put on an act in real life but it didn't matter, I was still an outcast. Thankyou for sharing that, you haven't shared it with me before but i have seen it. I love eeyore ❤️.

@rav3n i need a bit of a distraction to try and bring myself out of this state. Feeling very angry and frustrated at myself and fighting to not lash out at myself.

absolutely happy to have some distraction chats but i'm just about to take my work break, i'll be back in 30ish mins @Jynx will be around though.

Hey @MissGremlin been all over the shop tonight ahaha

What you up to?

@Jynx I've been like that today. Just been all over the place.

Trying to wind down but just really feeling overwhelmed.

@MissGremlin we must be on the topsy turvy ride or something!!

Ach I know the feeling. Sometimes I find it helpful to burn off energy, like do a small task and then try again to go back to winding down. Helps with the agitation.

@Jynx i want off the ride then please.

I tried running around my house but I'm still just really worked up. And I was just let down by a crisis service again so I'm feeling like I just don't matter and that I'm insignificant in this world.

@Jynx somethings just happened and I can't say it here. I can't even talk right now. I need one of those hugs that holds everything together, one that stops everything falling into a million pieces. I don't have it in me to pick up the pieces again 💔😢.

@MissGremlin but if you get off who will hold my hand for the extra scary bits?

Aww chicken that's a sucky feeling!! Definitely good to stick around cos look at all the peeps whose lives you've been significant in!