Battles

@MissGremlin ayy love that energy!!

making your own fluffy walls sounds like the perfect project, hopefully one day!!

if not calling them is going to keep you safe tonight - then i absolutely support you. i know i said i'd encourage you reach out always, but not if it's compromising your safety - your safety will always be no. 1.

i gotta hop off now, good night and take care. i know sitting with those feelings can be really uncomfortable and overwhelming, so please do try be kind to yourself and remember those list of words we wrote for you. i catch ya tomorrow, sending you some more gentle hugs 💙

@rav3n hope you have a good night, thanks for chatting to me tonight. Thanks for those hugs again. Night ❤️

@rav3n so things got too much for me and I decided to reach out to a crisis service to give it a chance. Big mistake, not only was I let down but I was made to feel like everything is my fault, that I've done nothing to help myself to get out of this situation. Everything I said was turned around and used against me to inflict more hurt and suffering. Yes I left feedback but it doesn't change how I'm left feeling. It doesn't change the fact that I needed help and I was completely let down by a service that's supposed to be there when you are in a crisis. Oh well doesn't matter now I guess. I'm completely done, this is what I was afraid of, that last straw to push me over the edge. Well good job to them, they win, I give up.

Is there any @moderator around please?

I'm having a really tough night and my thoughts are getting the better of me.

Morning @MissGremlin I hope you were able to get some good rest. How are things feeling this morning?

@Ru-bee @Jynx @rav3n anyone?

hey @MissGremlin we're around. just read about last night as well, i'm so sorry it didn't go well either. i feel so frustrated that you weren't able to receive the support you deserved.

i'm sitting with you 💙

@rav3n I'm just completely defeated today. I can't even feel anything, I just feel numb.

Thanks ❤️. I know I'm not much fun to talk to and I'm sorry for that.

@MissGremlin i'm so sorry you feel so defeated, it is definitely an exhausting position to be in. it's okay to take it slow, take your time to regain some energy. we're still here with you.

please don't think that!! i don't expect someone who feels numb or defeated to be 'fun' either way, i'm definitely no fun when i'm feeling low. but it's not about 'fun', it's just about being here for each other in the good and bad times. you don't need to be positive or enthusiastic to deserve connection and support, you can just be you. and we accept that always.

@rav3n you really have no idea how much that meant to me just now. To hear those words, I can't even begin to explain how it makes me feel. All my life I've been told that if only i was more positive that people might like me and want to be around me. But truth is even when I've been happy and positive still noone wants to be around me. There's a saying that has stuck with me for many years 'If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best'. I don't know where i even first heard it from.

But from the bottom of my heart thankyou ❤️.