Battles

@MissGremlin I'm glad you're safe and trying to slow things down a little. I know reaching out can feel really daunting when things are already overwhelming, so take it one step at a time.

Yeah I really enjoyed it ☺️ sounds like you had a really good run at Smokemart before things became difficult with your epilepsy. It must have been a lot to navigate, especially when you'd worked your way up to assistant manager

I completely understand haha, every minute counts when you're waiting for your caffeine fix! 💛

@Nala2022 I tried to contact health direct but we have storms here and the line wasn't working so they just said to call back later. I didn't get to tell them anything 😞. Feeling like this is really increasing those urges, that thought of maybe if I act that things will feel better. But I know in the long run it will only make things so much worse so I'm trying to fight the urges (I'm safe at the moment).

I enjoyed my job there especially getting to do the displays in the windows. We also did bulk orders for local businesses so we would drive around dropping off orders. To this day though I was never fired, nor did I quit, I just never went back.

Haha indeed it does!

I'm loving the thunder here at the moment, it's so relaxing to listen to, it's also raining. Casper is happily playing, making me throw his ball a million times 😂.

@Nala2022 apparently it's time for tug-of-war 😂.

@AuntGlow @Jynx 

@MissGremlin I'm sorry you weren't able to get through to Healthdirect, especially when you were trying to reach out for support. I can understand how frustrating and upsetting that must have been, particularly when the urges are getting stronger. I'm glad you're trying to resist them and recognising that acting on them could make things harder in the long run. Please keep reaching out for support, and if you feel you might act on those urges or can't keep yourself safe, please seek urgent help such as 000 rather than waiting to get through to Healthdirect

The window displays sound like they would've been fun to put together! It's funny how sometimes we leave a job without there ever being an official ending

That sounds like such a cosy afternoon with the thunder and rain! Casper is putting you to work haha

Hahaha love it @MissGremlin Casper is a big cutie!

@Nala2022 I'm feeling like I'm really not worthy right now, i tried to get through again and the same thing happened. This time though the person seemed agitated with me for it, I'm not responsible for the line being dodgy, I was just trying to get support 😞. I'm waiting to connect to a crisis service while I try to keep fighting the urges (I'm safe for now).

They were lots of fun to do. I miss being able to work but it's just not possible anymore sadly. Imagine being 40 and your career being over since you were 20.

Casper wore himself out, he's sleeping now while I'm doing my diamond art. How's Nala going?

@MissGremlin I'm so sorry you've had that experience. You're absolutely right that you're NOT responsible for the phone line having issues, and you deserve to be treated with kindness when you're asking for help. I'm glad you're trying to connect with a crisis service now, and I hope you're able to get the support you need while you're fighting those urges

I can imagine there's a lot of grief in not being able to work anymore, especially when it was something you enjoyed and had a big part of your life. That's a lot to come to terms with, and I'm sorry you've had to experience that

Sounds like Casper has well and truly exhausted himself! Nala is doing well, she's been sleeping since 6am this morning on the couch, the life of a cat lol

@Nala2022 I didn't even have any luck with the crisis service so it looks like I'm on my own today trying to fight myself. It makes it so hard to reach out for support again when things like this happen (I'm safe for now).

There definitely is alot of grief around it. Sometimes i sit there and think that maybe i could work again but between both physical and mental issues, it just won't happen. I miss those days when I could function somewhat normally, makes me wonder where I went so wrong.

They have the lap of luxury 😂. Wish I could just sleep the day away like they can. I am thinking about trying to have a nap though, maybe it will help to settle things a bit.

@MissGremlin I'm so sorry you've had such a difficult time trying to access support today. I can understand how discouraging it must feel to reach out when things are already hard and still not get the support you need

I can also hear how much grief there is around the changes you've experienced and how much you miss being able to work and function as you used to. Please try not to blame yourself for where you're at now. You've been dealing with a lot, and it doesn't mean you've gone wrong somewhere

The cats really do have the life! 😂 I hope a little rest helps you feel more settled, and please be gentle with yourself today 💛

@Nala2022 i finally got through to health direct who recommended calling an ambulance to at least check me out. So I allowed them to do that and have paramedics here at the moment (I'm safe).