Battles

Hello @Chasingsunsets, I was sleeping at the time when you posted and so was Casper.

Haha oh that's funny and sweet, Casper loves squeaky toys so when I played that song through my speaker he got very excited and was tilting his head at the speaker 😂.

Hope you've been having a lovely day sweet ☺️

@MissGremlin hi beautiful. You have been on my mind a lot and I have been keeping you in prayer. I feel like something good is coming. Wouldn't that be wonderful!

How are you going anyway lovely? I am back from a week of ups and downs, but I am choosing to focus on the ups because there is too much sadness in the world.
Having said that if things aren't going well for you please don't feel you have to hide it. I love that you can express yourself, raw and otherwise.

Most days are 2 steps forward and 3 steps back, I think I am good at being an ostrich with its head in the sand!

Much love and hugs gorgeous, and loves to Casper xoxo

Hello @ENKELI sweetheart, been thinking about you and missing chatting to you. Thankyou for your prayers and support always ❤️. It truly would be so wonderful to have something good come.

Things have been pretty tough, I've been trying to find little glimmers in the day. Getting out in my garden and finding things to take photos of has been nice and I had 2 days in a row of seeing my friend where we shared some laughs together and I got cuddles and smiles from her bubs. This thread is pretty much the one place I don't hide my thoughts/feelings whereas the rest of the forum I try to keep things light and support others where i can.

Haha that ostrich comment made me smile. For me it feels like 1 step forward and a million steps back, but hey that 1 step still counts 😂.

How was your trip away?

I shall give Casper some love when I get home, lots of love and hugs to you beautiful ❤️

I can't even imagine how painful and confusing this would be... reconnecting with yourself must feel so incredibly hard at times. I really, really appreciate you being so open with me. @MissGremlin

I absolutely believe that you can experience joy and connection without self-punishment.. I think with a really safe container (a specialised complex trauma counsellor), where you can practice self-compassion as you unmask, that process of rewiring can take place.

I can hear just how triggering being in this space can be though, so I understand that this wouldn't be easy to simply 'change' and that it needs lots of nurturing along the way, and that's okay. You're allowed to take your time.

Have you explored this with previous counsellors before? 💛

@AuntGlow it's really hard at times cos I get confused with how I'm feeling. There's times where I know i should feel a certain way (it's been brought to my attention) but instead I feel the opposite. It's so programmed into me and i both need and want proper support to be able to change it.

Your understanding and compassion around this really means alot, so thankyou ❤️.

The family counsellor that i have now is the first one I've actually had. Noone else has ever been willing or able to take me on cos I'm too complex. So I don't even know how to get that proper support.

@MissGremlin 😆

@Flutterbug9 haha oh that's honestly perfect, I love it.

A laugh for @MissGremlin

My work is done for the day. 🤣

Ive been chatting with Aunt Glow. Within a group I’m in on FB there are videos that show what having autism and/or ADHD can be like that I’d like to share. Problem is they are on FB and, so far, sane programs say ‘no’.

need a day when I have better luck at full concentration. Today has not been that day.

better get some dinner and try for proper early night. Early night last night actually saw me going to bed not long before 2am. Woken by 2 feline alarms around 6:30this morning. Too many “what if” scenario questions plus concerns of more nightmares for brain to shut off. Had nana nap this arvo for about 40mins

hoping you have found some bits of glimmer in things today and that Casper hasn’t had more than his share of dinner

@Flutterbug9 haha you did good 😂.

It can be tough wanting to share things especially videos that may be helpful for others but yes when it comes to Facebook it comes down to the anonymity.

Hoping tomorrow will be a better day for concentration sweet.

Hope you've had something yummy for dinner and get a good night's sleep. I know it's tough with those 'what if' scenarios and the worry of nightmares is tricky to sit with. I tried to nap today but only for a few minutes before getting disturbed.

There was a few glimmer moments today but the anxiety has made it hard to really enjoy them. Casper got his fair share of food today but thankfully only things that are edible 😂.

Love all the quotes/pictures, thankyou for the chats and the laugh. Night night sweet, sending you love and hugs ❤️.

@MissGremlin the kids shows with adult humour and complex character arcs are my FAVS!

Avatar TLA, Owl House, She-Ra (which has just got yanked from Netflix unfortunately), Steven Universe, allll amazing shows.

Aww he's so well trained, so like he waits until you tell him to hoover it or just is like 'umm no ew it's touched the floor'? lol

Hope you're having an okay evening hun 💜