Battles

Hi @Jynx hope your week is going okay?

Hahaha nice @MissGremlin rubber duckies!! Surprised I haven't heard that one before!

Reminds me a bit of Venjent, not sure if I've shared his stuff with you before? He makes sick DnB tracks out of random sound samples 😋

@NightFury yeah pretty chill, very much enjoying the colder weather 😊

@Jynx it's one of those songs that kind of lifts the heavy feelings while it's on.

Haha you mean like 'take your own advice' that i was listening to while I shared the duck toy song 😂

The sky is rumbling here, but it's pretty distant thunder. Keen for a good thunderstorm, it's been a while 😂

Poor memory exhibit B this evening @MissGremlin hahaha

Another one of his I like - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h90j6NAnS8U

Hope you get a good hearty downpour!! 🌧💜

@Jynx haha I'm liking that I'm not the only one that's got such a dodgy memory 😂.

Oohhhh another good one, shall have to add it to my play list.

It's actually rained a fair bit today, I went outside to pull out the weeds and clean up some leaves then it decided to get sunny and I retreated back inside 😂

@MissGremlin @NightFury I hear you both and empathise. I’ve given up saying .im ok for similar reasons as mentioned by both of you.

depending on whom I talking with, to a lot of people I just say “I’m fine”. The words intended to avoid uncomfortable discussions about feelings

wishing you both a restful night. 💤💤

@Flutterbug9 i get wanting to avoid those uncomfortable discussions about feelings.

Hope you can get a good sleep sweetheart, sending love and hugs ❤️.

Hello @MissGremlin 🫶

I know we talked about things feeling quite heavy and overwhelming the other night, and I am curious to hear how things are feeling today. 🥰

Hello @AuntGlow, I feel horrible saying that things are still feeling the same way 😞.

I've tried so hard today, I had laughs with my friend when I went to her appointment with her today. I've even had laughs in a group chat with people that I shared my socks with. But now I feel so heavy and I feel guilty for feeling any joy. I'm sorry i really feel like I'm such a failure for not just being ok.

I'm safe and I'm about to head out as I need to go to the shops. My head is pounding though once again, feel like I have a headache/migraine every day.

This is a really helpful and insightful observation @MissGremlin 🫶

I can see you have put in effort to connect with supportive things and notice that you were feeling good, but then another part of you has taken over and quelled those good feelings. I want you to know this is actually a very human and common pattern to experience when our brains have become used to a certain pathway - hence why feeling good can feel scary or wrong. It can take some rewiring, but practicing sitting through that discomfort and still allowing joy in can be so helpful in creating this new pathway.

I am curious to know about this guilt, I wonder why that part comes in to protect you when you feel good? 💛