Battles

Sounds like a good plan @MissGremlin I'm doing a paint by number. It doesn't look like much at the moment.

@NightFury i had a shower and did my dishes, now I'm sitting on my bed hoping to fold up the washing.

Ooohh what's the picture that you are painting?

Well done @MissGremlin on gettimg some jobs done.

The picture looks like this...or should when it's done.

@NightFury oh wow that looks awesome. Really hoping i can clean off my table at some stage so I can do my painting and puzzle etc

It doesn't look like that at the moment.

@MissGremlin

@NightFury is looking good so far sweet.

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@AuntGlow Casper gets told all my feelings and gladly licks away the tears that often come with them 😂.

I'm exhausted mentally and emotionally but not physically. I've just turned my show off and I'm laying here with Casper in silence listening to the crickets outside.

Hope you have a good night sweet ❤️.

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Awww, Casper is a good boy! @MissGremlin

How was it to have a still and silent moment last night?

Also how are you feeling today? Aaaand, what is one good thing that has happened in the last 24 hours? It can be really small (and it still counts 💛).

Hi @Chasingsunsets! I know!! It's lovely to chat to you all - I have responded to one of your posts on another thread too. 🫶

@AuntGlow the quiet moment was strange, it's not very often where I lay in silence.

Today has been really hard, I'm stuck in a mixed state at the moment with not sleeping but my moods are incredibly low to the point where it feels like I'll never feel happiness again. I'm not sure i can find a good thing for the past 24 hours, it's actually been such a trying time to the point where I've almost called an ambulance cos of specific thoughts and not feeling right (I'm safe).

I'm sitting on my bed now with music playing and my diamond art in front of me.

It's not often we do that, hey?! It can be really uncomfortable, but also really grounding. What did strange illuminate for you? @MissGremlin

This must feel like so much right now, lovely. I am so sorry you're feeling this way. Despite how heavy you have been feeling, you're doing a wonderful job of reaching out and remembering your safety plan.

Are things feeling lighter at the moment?

And diamond art seems to be all the rage on the forums!! What am I missing out on? haha please show me where I can get some too. 🤩

@AuntGlow i didn't find it grounding, for me it allows thoughts to get louder but I was getting irritated by noise so it was a catch 22 situation.

It really does feel like so much and i long for things to feel different but I'm not sure it's ever going to happen. At the moment I don't have a safety plan, my previous one is very much not useful anymore.

Things are feeling incredibly heavy, even within my body it feels like my limbs are made of lead. I have no energy, or motivation but I'm not tired and i feel restless and irritated and like things are building up inside of me, so I'm stuck frustrated not knowing what to do (I'm safe). I've packed up my diamond art as I was getting annoyed with the gems not sticking to the pen tool. I'm thinking I might make some lucky stars maybe while I have my TV show on.

Diamond art is definitely increasing in popularity. I order most of mine from shein and occasionally some from ebay.