Battles

@MissGremlin hey sweet, I was without power for most of yesterday and today I am feeling pretty average, well below average really.

I hope you're doing okay and looking after yourself. I have left things to the last minute and have to complete my assessment and submit it today.

I have been thinking of you beautiful xoxo

Hello @ENKELI sweet, being without power for so long would have sucked. I'm sorry you are feeling well below average, I'm here for you beautiful ❤️.

I'm such a mess and really struggling at the moment, just doing the best i can. I hope you can get the assessment done and submitted in time, I believe in you sweet, you've got this ❤️.

Been thinking of you too sweetheart as always 😘

@Captain24 bin days have always been hard for me too. I don't know why I find them so hard though.

I dozed off briefly but just got woken up by a phone call.

How are you feeling now sweet?

Afternoon @MissGremlin @ENKELI @Captain24

how’s the afternoon going? I did read about bin day. I definitely have bin anxiety! Don’t want to forget to take it out. I have run down the street to chase the bin man before and he came back to empty my bin lol so kind 😊.

stuck in bed, plans derailed for me but all good

Thanks @MissGremlin

Just been a sh*t of a week this week and it’s only half way through. Previous weeks had high highs or low lows.

domino game 2 weeks ago (supposed to be social, friendly game) became an afternoon where xx number of people started “political based” things. All of which, when I did my own research on the applicable government website, I found to be completely incorrect.

last week, no notification, no one turned up.

yesterday, after trying to use my card to pay for cat food and it rejecting, I spend more than 1hr at local bank branch. Long story short, after being on the phone to their scam investigation team for ages, the bank has locked and now cancelled my card. In semi limbo waiting for new card to arrive.

this morning I couldn’t do anything right in croquet. This afternoon person who organised for ladies only snooker afternoon started openly questioning my shots, plus few other things involving other players. I’m normally very quiet and verbally don’t stand up for myself/speak back to people. When I was asked what I was doing at one stage I remember looking at the person and snapping “cos it’s my shot and my decision to make”

im already feeling the urges of self isolating starting to increase the volume of their voices. Voices that are becoming quite strong. Promised myself I won’t let that happened again, don’t think I can keep that promise. I’ll be going out for dinner followed by evening of games tomorrow evening, have to make myself go as have said I’ll bring some bread sticks (will be byo casserole or desert to share dinner). Damn depression taking a stronger hold again so soon 😢

Hello @Chasingsunsets, my afternoon has been really tough (I'm safe). Life needs to cool it on throwing things my way. Bin day just feels like so much effort, I've occasionally forgotten to put my bins out aswell and had to ring to have them collected. That was nice of him to come back and empty it ☺️.

Hope it's been an ok afternoon for you sweet.

Sorry to hear it's been tough @MissGremlin .

Please look after yourself.

@tyme I'm trying to but honestly doing this without proper support is really hard.

Can you join the Recovery Club? Registrations have opened @MissGremlin

https://www.sane.org/recovery-club

At least you've got 5 x 1:1 sessions in the interim while you look for other supports

@Flutterbug9 I'm sorry it's been a sh!t of a week sweet. It would be nice to just have that middle ground where things are consistent sometimes.

That's a shame they brought up political based things, I honestly can't stand conversations around politics myself.

Oh sweet, having your card rejecting and then it being cancelled would be so stressful in itself 😞. Hoping it doesn't take too long for a new card to arrive for you.

Today sounds really full on, I'm sorry that person questioned your shots and talked about things involving other players. I think you did really well to stand up for yourself in that moment. You definitely shouldn't have to justify your moves in a game or talk about anything you're not comfortable with.

I can hear those voices are strong but know that you are stronger than them and you can be in control of them. Maybe tomorrow going out to dinner and games after will be the high of the week, there's always ups and downs in life and when we have those downs it can help to focus on the ups we've had to get us through.

Sending you gentle hugs sweetheart, here for you always ❤️