Battles

@ENKELI oh sweet, that's alot of people blocking you 😞. Your sister sounds like a real piece of work and it seems that everyone chooses to believe her lies.

If they are going to be like that and side with her then you truly don't need them in your life.

Always remember that you are a strong, amazing and courageous person and you don't need any of their toxicity in your life.

I'm always here for you sweetheart, sending so much love and hugs your way ❤️.

@MissGremlin

@MissGremlin just read the poem from 8 march (I am that behind lol). Thank you. I needed to read that today. unfortunately it mirrors the conversation in many ways today when asking about available crisis supports and again being told that there are no supports to meet my needs (even private paid). Heartbreaking for you 💔.

@AlwaysMyself i was just reading your post from before and when I read the part about not being able to get support, it just hit home so hard. It's such a hard spot to be in, needing support especially in those moments but there being nothing accessible. I'm truly sorry you've had this experience aswell, you deserve support so much. Just know that I'm here if you ever need to chat things through, I know it can be hard talking about things and keeping within the guidelines but I'm also good at reading between the lines.

Sending you love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

Please be careful within my thread at the moment as I had some tragic news yesterday so there's been talk about the loss of loved ones.

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@MissGremlin wrote:

I know it can be hard talking about things and keeping within the guidelines but I'm also good at reading between the lines.

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You nailed it 😅. I’ve promised to give this year a chance, which is why I am trying to “give it a chance” by seeking supports.

PS - I’m really sorry to hear you had more bad news yesterday 😨😭. Are you OK? How are you coping?

For me, reading about losing others is not painful.

@AlwaysMyself it honestly breaks my heart to hear that last part but I truly understand it. I'm still holding that hope for you that there's something that shifts within the year or something comes along that can give you the support you need. You're such a valued member of the community here and even when you're not able to hop online you are constantly thought and cared about. Love and hugs sweet, you're not alone ❤️.

As for how I'm coping, I'm really not (I'm safe). I haven't allowed myself to feel anything really, not sure if it's out of fear or if those feelings haven't quite hit yet.

Thanks @MissGremlin , and sending you hugs. One is hard enough, two is even harder. I remember when I was in high-school being told about how “chain reactions” occur after a death, and the risk-awareness/planning the schools need to do when an event like that happens. But if people don’t feel there are supports to meet their needs, I’m not sure what anyone can do?

But “open arms, open doors” to people being allowed to talk and just listening - I think it can help many people. And when I say “listening” that can mean many things, including “just sitting with you quietly unless you want to talk, to make sure you have someone safe and can talk if you want to later”.

@MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself I am thinking of and praying for you both this evening. I wish this weren't such a crappy world that we live in.

Much love and hugs.

It's 9pm here, time to take my night meds and go to bed. Let's see if I wake up at 2.30am again and toss and turn for 3 or 4 hours! Glad I have Foxtel to watch/listen to.

I’m going to try to get some sleep, @MissGremlin - whilst my mind and heart is calm.

I plan to take tomorrow easy, but I am aware of 2 phone calls I need to have which have the potential to frustrate me if I don’t feel I am being listened to, or they do not understand why the situation is a problem. Neither relate to what we just talked about though. I just have too many stressful things I am trying to get progress on currently, and having to self-advocate every step alone.

I hope you can get some nightmare-free sleep tonight at some stage.

I’ve liked seeing your art when I’m slowly going through tags from 3 weeks ago lol. 😊