Battles

@MissGremlin , why "MissGremlin"? You like the movie?

@tyme i honestly can't remember the movie, though i have seen it. But Gremlin has meaning to me for another reason which i can't say on here.

@ENKELI i finally get to sit down and reply. I'm sorry it's taken me so long sweet 😞.

Yes it's hard not being able to discuss and i don't like that the community is left not knowing what's going on which can cause them to worry. I missed you while you weren't around but I'm so glad you are back now ❤️.

You coming here and chatting and supporting people is definitely a contribution and a very good one at that. You're such a valuable member of the community here sweet ☺️.

Thankyou sweetheart, i always appreciate the prayers ❤️. That's like my hope, it's almost non existent but somehow buried deep within.

Honestly they keep us on our toes 😂. He's the biggest goofball, lucky he's cute though 😂. Yes it was full on panic for me as i couldn't afford the vet visit and I don't qualify for any of the vetpay options so it makes it hard when things like this happen.

Oh wow, that's definitely alot. Years ago one of my dogs ended up with severe mastitis and had to spend time at the vets, they didn't know if she was going to make it. Thankfully she did but it cost about $3000, luckily back then they allowed me to pay it off but they don't anymore.

Hope the studying has gone ok today sweet.

I don't remember the movie either. I just remember there was one. That's totally okay that you cannot share. I absolutely respect that. Thank you for letting me know @MissGremlin

@NightFury i can understand the swamped feeling. Hoping you can catch up on the housework and then have some time for a bit of self care especially being that Monday is a day off for you. Hope lawn bowls goes ok for you tomorrow and the assignment isn't too stressful to get done.

I have nothing on this weekend.

@MissGremlin I just find that it's an uneven playing field with some things. There was a member who several of us used to chat with and he left the forums. His wife was able to let us know and would give us updates but that was not possible in my case.

I feel like I'm being watched so I am trying to be careful with what I write but it's hard. I used to be quite shy and would never upset the apple cart but after being bullied at my last couple of workplaces and having my ex friend tear me to shreds mentally and emotionally I started to fight back. Except I can't do that without backlash so I feel defeated.

It's as if anonymity is more important than the well-being of people.

You don't ever have to apologise for taking time sweetheart, you are so overwhelmed at the moment I am amazed at your resilience. I thank God you're still hanging in there. I also wish He'd hurry up and answer my prayers for you!

Thank you for your kind words, it's people like you that make me want to help, no matter how limited that help may be 🫂♥️💐🙏💎

@ENKELI i have so much i want to say but I can't cos I know I'm being watched and right now I can't afford to risk losing this space when it's my support network. But I get exactly where you're coming from and I understand. Big hugs sweetheart, just know that I'm so glad you are here ❤️.

Overwhelmed feels like an understatement, i don't like that i struggle to do the most simplest of things. Hold that thought of hanging in there cos tonight/tomorrow is going to be one hell of a bumpy ride (I'm safe and doing everything I can to fight through this). I just got myself into bed and have Casper snuggled up with me.

I know it's hard to see our value to others but sometimes it's just knowing that someone cares that can mean the absolute world to another. Love and hugs sweetheart, you're such a beautiful soul ❤️

@MissGremlin one thing about my ex friend, when she was a friend she was a true friend. Whenever I complimented her and said she was amazing, exceptional and such a wonderful friend, she'd say "Put that mirror back up beautiful." And so to you I say the same thing.
You are an amazing support to others here on the forum so if I can be there for you, it reminds me that I AM worthy, I AM wanted and that I AM cared about.

I completely understand about being watched. I feel the same way. Untoward events happen and sometimes the innocent are punished. Sometimes I feel like I have to stay quiet when I feel like shouting.

Are you able to sleep or still not managing? I wish I could do more for you my lovely, and you are so very important to many people here on the forums xoxo 😍❤️

@ENKELI that's such a beautiful thing that your friend at the time said and thankyou for saying it to me ❤️. Your words are always so kind, compassionate and filled with so much love and care. You my sweet are definitely worthy, wanted and cared about, don't you ever forget that beautiful ❤️.

I couldn't agree more with that entire statement.

Sleep isn't happening for me at the moment, too many thoughts and scenarios playing out in my head (I'm safe for now). You just being here means so much, your gentle and kind words and your understanding truly helps more than you could ever know ❤️. The forums community is like a family to me, I've been cared for more here than I have by people in the real world.

@MissGremlin I wanted to go to sleep and never wake up last weekend, I was miserable and like you, the forums are my only outlet. I am grateful I made it through a very tough time and it's annoying when things happen that aren't even your fault. Sometimes I feel like I'm back at my old workplace, being punished because my boss didn't like me.

This is supposed to be a safe space where we can be open and honest but can we really?

I've said too much. I'm grateful that I can be there for you. If I'm not online please know that I'll still be thinking about you 💐♥️💎🥰