Battles

Yesss you certainly snuck it in there @MissGremlin was a clear uh huh moment in my brain when I realised so funny 😂, thought you were a completely different member for a bit 😂😂 tricky lol

Awwwww I love that!!! So so good!! I love wrapping pressies for indi she really loved opening presents hehe. What was his favourite that you got him?

Oh no poor Casper so lucky he didn’t choke too so so good to hear he’s ok and hope it was not a good sock 😂🤭

How are you MG 💚

@Chasingsunsets haha kind of goes back to my original name here before I had to close my first account due to safety issues. Hoping it won't confuse too many people cos I'm still trying to do the toolshed posts.

Haha Casper has so much fun unwrapping presents too. He's had alot of fun playing with the flamingo that he got. But he's got so many toys so he's always playing with something different.

It wasn't a good sock thankfully, but I'm just so glad he's ok from it.

Sorry to hear things are rough for you here if you want to chat about anything ❤️. Things are really bad for me and I'm at the end of my tether (I'm safe).

Hey @MissGremlin - so great to see the support being offered in this space!

I just wanted to jump in quickly, as I can see things are tough for you, and you feel you are at the end of your tether. This sounds really hard, and I hope you are able to find some comfort in the peer support space.

I wonder if you would be willing to share a little more about how you are keeping safe from these thoughts tonight? This can be a great way to reflect on what is helpful to you in your help-seeking journey, whilst also providing the community with some more clarity around your safety. If there is any way we can support you with this, please don't hesitate to let us know also!

If you find yourself feeling unsafe with your thoughts at any point or simply needing to untangle them a little further in a one-on-one space, you are welcome to connect with Lifeline or Beyond Blue for more support.

Take care!

Hello @ShadowMod, I reached out to a crisis service earlier tonight and if I'm honest that's what's put me at the end of me tether. The person I spoke to kept pushing to talk about the subject of my niece taking her life in December even when I told them that I didn't want to talk about it as it was too painful. Things have already been incredibly hard for me without the painful memories being brought up and then the guilt being used against me when talking about my own feelings and thoughts of suicide (I'm safe)

As for what I'm doing to keep myself safe well I'm in bed with my puppy Casper. I'm working on trying to get to sleep but even after doing diamond art, listening to music, watching my TV show and then some random videos I'm just not able to switch off.

Sorry to hear that connecting with this crisis service wasn't helpful for you tonight @MissGremlin. I know it can take a lot of mental energy to reach out for that support, and it can be super disappointing to find yourself feeling worse after a session.

I can understand why you wouldn't want to talk about the passing of your niece when things have already been feeling so overwhelming for you, and you truly deserve to have a safe space where you can guide the conversation in a way that comfortably meets your support needs. I want to reassure you that it's okay to not gel with certain people or supports, and this is where it could be helpful to try connecting with another counsellor or service that feels like a better fit for you. I see you are trying to wind down for the night, but I trust you will be able to try reaching out again if needed - you deserve this compassion and understanding.

I hope Casper is showing you some big love, and you are able to continue leaning into your coping strategies to help switch off. Be gentle with yourself, and I hope that the new day is a little kinder to you.

Sending strength your way!

@ShadowMod it's one of those things that is hit and miss when it comes to reaching out. I've had a few good interactions lately, just tonight didn't go well.

Thankyou for the understanding. When reaching out at the moment I'm clear to state what I'm needing from the interaction, which right now is just connection and to be heard. I'm not looking for anyone to try to fix things or talk me out of decisions made, most accept this but some just miss the mark. It won't stop me reaching out though if I feel I need to.

Casper is snuggled up with me as he always is. Hoping I can get some sleep soon but tomorrow is a day that comes with so much uncertainty and that's weighing heavily on my mind tonight.

Thankyou for the kind words and strength.

Hope you are having a good night ☺️

Hello @NightFury my sweet, checking in with you this morning ❤️

Feeling a bit rough @MissGremlin

I cried for like four hours last night. So this morning, I'm feeling a little washed out and mentally sore...if that makes sense.

How are things over there?

@NightFury oh sweet, I'm sorry to hear. That definitely makes sense, I'm here if you want to chat about anything. Sending you hugs sweetheart ❤️.

Things are a real mess over here, today my lease runs out and I have no idea what's happening. My land agent messaged me at 5:39am to tell me that a roofer would be around at 8:30am, no mention of what's happening with the lease though and when I ask I get no response from her. I've had no other contact from her since Saturday when I tried to negotiate thing's with her but got no reply after her first response. I'm scared, sad, frustrated and angry and feeling so uncertain about the future right now. I'm safe and still snuggled up in bed with Casper for a little bit longer.

@MissGremlin I just wanted to let you know that I'm about to head to work. I'll reply when I arrive. I'm not ignoring you, I just have to drive and then I'll reply. ❤️