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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Hope you can stay dry tomorrow @MissGremlin - unless Casper decides otherwise I suppose! 😂

Aww yay, hope you enjoy 💜

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@Jynx haha hopefully I can. Should be right if I don't bring out the cheese or chicken 😂.

You haven't shared a song yet that I haven't enjoyed ☺️

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Hello @NightFury my sweet, checking in with you today ❤️

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Hi @MissGremlin

I had a few strange dreams last night that woke me.

I was awake super early and got all of my jobs done for the day before 9.30 am. Apart from being physically sore, I was feeling okay. Now, I have a bit of brain fog setting in. It was pouring with rain when I woke and now it's really hot and muggy and I'm not much of a fan.

How are you?

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@NightFury sorry you had a few strange dreams that woke you up.

You've done incredibly well to get things done before 9:30am. Are you able to allow yourself to rest for a bit sweet? That hot and muggy weather is horrible, I'm not a fan of it either.

I'm okayish, trying to make a couple of phone calls. One went to message bank the other I'm currently on hold to. Thinking I might make myself an iced coffee while I'm waiting.

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I think today's going to need to be a rest day @MissGremlin My muscles are so sore in places and I don't even really know what I've done to them. I don't really have a lot to do for the rest of the day. I need to go and pick up a parcel from the post office, then call into my parents because we left Luna's treat ball there on Friday and she needs that for when I head off to work tomorrow...other than that, everything else is done now.

An iced coffee sounds amazing. I might get myself one of those when I head down the street to pick up my parcel.

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@NightFury a rest day sounds like a really good idea. That's the worst when you are sore but don't know why, hope you are feeling better soon sweet ❤️. I'm glad you don't have alot on for the rest of the day, getting Luna's treat ball and picking up a parcel from the post office then hopefully just resting as much as you can today.

Getting an iced coffee on your way to get your parcel sounds perfect ☺️.

The phone call i was on hold to has left me feeling completely hopeless and I'm in tears. I'm going to lay on my lounge and snuggle with Casper, so exhausted of having to fight so hard to just survive (I'm safe).

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Here to chat about it if you need to vent or to get it off your chest @MissGremlin

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@NightFury thankyou sweet.

It's just so scary and frustrating. I have 11 days until my lease is up and I physically cant do anything more than I've already done. I'm trying so hard to do the best I can for everyone here and keep a roof over our heads but I'm stuck now and it's all falling apart, I'm falling apart (I'm safe).

Then I find out that the housing person didn't even take a copy of my support letter like she said she would so now I have to send that in via email.

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11 days @MissGremlin that's come around so quickly. I know that I would be terrified and have had moments where I've feared homelessness, so I can relate a little to what you're feeling and going through.

It sounds like the next step for you, is to get that email sent. It must be hard to feel so powerless in this, Dreamy. Relying on others to help and to do their jobs and not knowing what the outcome will be, especially with a worse case scenario looming over you.

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