Battles

Ok @MissGremlin. I hope you are ok and can get some sleep. That is for chatting tonight.

I should try and get some sleep to.

@Captain24 hopefully we can both get some sleep tonight. Thankyou for the chats and support always.

Love and hugs to you sweetheart ❤️.

It's so hard finding the courage to reach out to a crisis service only to be left feeling so invalidated and completely dismissed 😞.

After telling them everything that's happening, how I'm feeling and the thoughts I'm having and being honest about plans when questioned around suicidal thoughts and telling them what happened Monday last week. They couldn't get rid of me quick enough just telling me to try to get some rest, I even said that I'm not able to rest cos I'm still in a panicked state and yet they just came back with 'I don't think i can support you, hope you can get some rest feel free to check in tomorrow', then they were gone.

I just wanted to be heard, to not feel so alone. I know noone can fix things and i don't expect them to, but to just push you away as quick as they can like you just don't matter, it hurts so much and has left me feeling worse than I was before I connected.

I'm safe for now. I'm trying to watch some videos on my phone but it's hard to see through the tears. I feel so sick and scared.

I finally managed to doze off a bit after 3.30am, not even an hour later after that I've woken up having yet another panic attack. I don't know what i did to deserve this 😞. I'm safe for now but I'm in tears, my body is so sore.

I'm so sorry that ringing the crisis line has left you feeling so invalidated and completely dismissed @MissGremlin ! I've never used the number, but I didn't think it would be like that!! Do they give you all the time you need to talk? 💜

@heartathome it's really hurt but it's not the first time. The services are time limited so often it just feels like they want to get rid of you as quick as possible. It's hard cos you'll often pour everything out and then get told that you've been chatting a while and that it's good to take a break and they disappear but leave you to pick up the pieces.

The services are time limited I'm sorry that you're hurting so bad! A time limit seems to be the worst idea! I can relate to spending the time sharing to be told time is up when I hadn't finished. When I was suicidal in the 80's, I needed all the time in the world to share my complicated life at that time. I didn't get it. I was told to focus on the future, not the past. It ended up that I needed to go through my past with my psych 20 years later. Very messy.

I've got to travel to another town soon for an NSW Mental Health forum meeting. I'm thinking of going downtown for a coffee before I go.

I pray you may feel God's peace today. 💜

@heartathome yes being time limited when you've got a lifetime worth of trauma to talk through really isn't helpful. I get that they have so many people to help but often these services just want to get rid of you so quickly regardless of how much you're struggling in the moment.

Sorry I didn't reply sooner, the universe has thrown yet another curve ball my way with my puppy having a bad ear infection.

I hope you enjoy having a coffee before you go.

Thankyou sweet ❤️.

Hello @NightFury my sweet, not sure what the time is for you. But wondering if you would like to have a cuppa together?

I'm sorry @MissGremlin but I'm just seeing this now.