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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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@AlwaysMyself now see there's a pattern here cos I did my giraffe mystery mosaic picture and now you are doing a giraffe coaster. I'm currently working on a cow diamond art, so maybe you could do the cow coaster next?

You're getting me with the feels today sweet, but in a gentle, reminding way ❤️

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Syncrotism at its best @MissGremlin !!

Ok, the Cow is locked in for next up! 😁

I look forward to seeing your diamond art when it is done. 🥰😍🤩

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@AlwaysMyself I'll see if I can get my cow done this morning then ☺️.

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No rush though @MissGremlin from me, I'm very OK with you posting it tomorrow instead 😉🤭🤭.

I hipe you can appreciate the humour in my cheeky comment here too 😉😉.

I wonder if doing it this morning means getting a MOOve on with it? 🤭😁

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@AlwaysMyself i do appreciate the humour and I'm trying to keep things light myself. Although I've been hit with a bit of a wave of feelings and thoughts at the moment (I'm safe for now).

I'm very much getting a MOOve on with it 😂.

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What noise does a giraffe make? 🤔

I cant think of any equiv puns for it.

But ive started painting the giraffe while i wait too. 😘 @MissGremlin

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@AlwaysMyself they do actually make several sounds although they do it rather quietly. Their low hums that they make are around 92 Hz, this is the same frequency as a low cello note or a distant thunder rumble.

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@AlwaysMyself I did my best to do as much as I could before I had my appointment. Hope your appointment has gone or is going well ❤️.

 

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hahah how was your morning brew? @MissGremlin

Noticing the challenge but also feeling at peace with what's next sounds like a really balanced place to be in. How does that feel for you?

I understand - meeting yourself where you're at is more than enough. How did it go?

And I am well, thank you for asking. I actually had therapy for the first time in a while this week and it was helpful to remember how important holding space for my "less loveable parts" is.

@AlwaysMyself honestly, it sounds like you had a very proactive week and more space to address your challenges/ask for support, is that right?

Also, please let me know how your appointment went too! 🫶

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@MissGremlin that cow is coming along beautifully 🥰😍.

How did the appointment go?

@AuntGlow @MissGremlin

My counselling appt was good - although we didnt end up picking up where we left off because... well before I left home I old my mum about the GP noticing autistic patterns -- i deliberatley did not mention this to her until i had a "timeboxed" space and a way to regulate after 😅. So we did talk about that for perhaps half the session, my unwinding about it and the communication frustration with my mum about it, and her also reminding me of how she noted once or twice when i have automatically taken something shes said very literally too 🤣, before thinking on it more. Wont go into it here, might post on my thread abit if youre interested though. It led to a bit of discussion about other aspects of MH that my thought pattern is... different to others in too. Things ive never been able to say to others because its not socially allowed to think/say.

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