Don’t want to accept the pain

Hello lovely @creative_writer, thank you so much for this update. Despite being exhausted, I can see you have taken care of yourself in some really nourishing ways, as well as being productive by scanning the documents for your psychs. These may seem like small actions, but they really are big wins. I'm so proud of you!

I know that admitting asking for help feels scary right now and I also know you have a creative imagination that may be conjuring up some challenging images. To counteract this, when you have the space, perhaps you could consider what the best possible outcome could look like? And when you consider that, notice how it feels in your body. I am looking forward to your reflections with this.

Also, it's okay to have a part of you that is in denial, this is very confronting stuff, so please be gentle with yourself. I can see you really want support, and you will get there, I promise.

What is one thing you could do to more safely release the agitation you are feeling tonight? 💛

@creative_writer that's great that you've got your safety plan already, and if you are struggling on how to bring this up with psych, maybe even chatting up about updating it with her can be a segue into talking about the SI/SH.

ofc, here's some screenshots to help out:

1. click on the expand toolbar (...)

2. then there's a caution symbol shaped as a triangle with an ! inside - clicking that will add the content warning/spoiler tag textbox in. then you just write inside the textbox whatever you want hidden.

feel free to reach out if you have more questions!

and also, i absolutely hear that you didn't expect things to escalate - sometimes we don't see it coming and those thoughts/feelings hit us harder than we expect. it can be scary, but it doesn't mean you deserve to feel that way. you deserve to be here. 💜

@creative_writer I can understand this... mine can be too and it can really overwhelm my nervous system. Sleep will definitely help with this.

I know how scary it can be to feel lost or like you don't know where to go. Something led you here, which is a very positive step towards more support. This shows me that you are well on your way to working things out. It just takes a little time. 💖

Breathing, skin care, and prayer sound like wonderful ways to slow things down. Please let me know how you go.

If you're still feeling a sense of agitation, maybe you could explore some somatic exercises like shaking your body, pushing your hands against a wall, or tensing and releasing your muscles? I find things like this really help with agitation.

Thank you for letting me know that you are safe. 💛

so glad to hear you're feeling a lil better today 💖 @creative_writer